What next?

Day 02 of Juice Fasting: Not so bad!

2012-01-30T18:53:00.001-08:00

Well today was not as bad as I expected.

I woke up with a headache, muscles feel a little tight, and feeling pretty tired and fatigued. I relaxed for most of the day and then went to get a massage in hopes to help release the toxins from the muscles and allow them to relax. When I got up from the massage, my face was super red almost as if I was having an allergic reaction to something on my skin yet nothing was put on my skin. I just figured it was something to do with detoxing and laying face down for awhile.

I considered making an appointment for a colon hydrotherapy treatment but I a little nervous about that since I have heard conflicting stories. Some day it can be painful and some say if done right it shouldn't be painful. I know that during a juice fast toxins build in the colon and its important to get them out. I haven't made the appointment yet we'll see what I do.

Driving home from the massage I started to feel anger. Angry that I "can't" eat. Angry that I had/have all these health issues. Angry that I don't know if they are getting better or if I am going to have more stuff to deal with in the future. Just plain anger. Which is a little odd.

I seem a little bit more conscious of my feelings and more talkative. I have spurts of energy which is really odd where I just want to talk forever. That usually only happens when I am talking to either Albert or my friend Vicki, or if I had been drinking.

It's only day two and I feel a tinge of confidence from this. Probably just because this isn't necessarily easy and yet it something I am doing out of love and care for myself. It feels good that I am actually doing this. I still can't believe it.

I kind of expect tomorrow to be terrible. Just because yesterday or today was not nearly as bad as I expected and others have said, so I assume the worst is still to come.

We'll see how far I make it.

Day 01 of Juice Fasting

2012-01-29T18:46:00.000-08:00

Day 01 was a lot easier than I thought it would be.

I didn't like juice very much so every time I got a bit hungry I would take a drink of the juice and it made me nauseous taking my hunger away quickly. Towards the end of the day I felt slightly spacey.

I couldn't believe how easy it was for me to just not eat the entire day. Especially since I LOVE food.

Don't get me wrong I fantasize about food all day long and I am not saying it was easy, just much easier than I anticipated.

I didn't get the runs either like I was warned but then again I didn't drink much juice.

Today's juice was Apple, Pear, Broccoli, Celery, Carrots, Lemon, Spinach and Cabbage. I think I put way to much lemon since I really tasted the lemon.

A little scared about what tomorrow has in store for me. Most people say the second day is the worst.

We'll see

The day before my 10 day Juice fast Journey

2012-01-28T22:31:00.000-08:00

I have read all about the benefits of fasting over the past couple of years, as well as the benefits of juicing and veggies. But I would have never thought I would be doing a juice fast.

A lot of things had to happen in order to get me to the place I am right now.

After being told I had cancer, tumors, then problems with my cervix all at the young age of 31 years old, I decided to change my health. I started educating myself on nutrition, eating better, and making my health a priority.

Then about a week ago I watched a movie called "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead" and still having many issues with my health, I was inspired to do a juice fast.

I am not the type of person to do things like this. I love food, I love all the "wrong" foods and I would have never thought I would be even thinking about juice fasting for one day let alone 10.

But here I am! I have already eaten my last meal, brown rice spaghetti's noodles with organic tomatoes and basil. Yummmmm

Now I am getting a little nervous about all of this. I researched juice fasting as much as I possible could. I tried to prepare as much as possible in regards to knowing what to expect, having the support I believe I will need, and getting very clear about why I am doing this.

So................ I know this is going to be challenging. I know the next few days are going to be particularly hard and that scares me. In the past I have not done well with anything that was challenging. I tend to want to give up. I know If I give up during my juice fast, I will feel really bad but I also know the chances of me giving up are high since this is not going to be anything close to easy.

I think I am more scared about whether I can make it through this or not than the idea of not eating. No matter how much I have grown or evolved I still have some unsupportive habits of allowing my emotions and moods to have to control at times when things get difficult.

I want to accomplish 10 days of a juice fast. I want to succeed, its very important to me and my body.

We'll see what happens!

Tiffany

Life just never happens the way we plan!

2012-01-07T22:26:00.000-08:00

I believe that life never goes as planned. And I don't like that, its not comforting and at the moment actually rather upsetting.

Some, very few, will say that life unfolds better than what we had planned. But what I hear in that statement is pain. What I hear is you don't get what you want out of life? And that just sucks.

Maybe I am just having a moment but I was a bit disturbed when this concept was pointed out to me.

So if I plan to spend the rest of my life with the man I love, that means it won't unfold that way because that is what I plan.

If I plan to have two more kids, that means it won't happen because I plan it that way.

If I plan on being happy and healthy for a long time, that means it won't happen because I plan it that way.

If I go to school, educate and train myself so that I can be successful in business and have a rewarding and fulfilling career that means it won't happen because I plan it that way.

How can that not be depressing?

I have read so many self help books with such opposing opinions on this subject. Some preach "He who fails to plan, plans to fail." others say "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making plans" and even “Seek not that the things which happen should happen as you wish; but wish the things which happen to be as they are, and you will have a tranquil flow of life." or "Go with the flow."

I have been taught that our intentions are what creates our life/future but isn't that planning something, intending it to be so?

I am coming to the conclusion that we have no choice but to go with the flow of life. No matter what we plan we have no control over what actually unfolds. Yet we try so very very hard to dictate how our lives go.

With every fiber in my being I hope to get to spend the rest of my life happily with the man I love. But confronting the fact that not only are his choices not in my control but more disturbing my own choices, feelings, and life is not really in my control either. This is so disturbing to me. On top of that we can not control what life does to us, accidents, diseases, etc.

I also want to feel good, be happy and live a long healthy life. But no matter what I eat, how much I exercise, or what actions I take I can not control how life unfolds.

The only thing and I mean the absolute ONLY thing we can control is how what happens in life affects us. We can control what we think about, what we put our attention and focus on, and where we put our energy. We have no control over ANYTHING else.

Put simply we can be a victim or we can choose how we respond to what life throws our way. We do not have control over what is thrown our way. We can try and resist as much as we can but the force of life/source/god is powerful beyond any force you may individually have.

Do I trust life not to throw me some mean sh*t? Hell no, I know better. But I hope it spares me a little and at least gives me the things that mean the most to me. My love ones. Even then I will experience loss.

I don't write this to be depressing. Although it can seem that way. I write this as a reality check for myself and for anyone else who may have the desire to read it. I write this because the last three weeks have been a haze and roller coaster wrapped up in one. I had to confront my life, head on. But more importantly as I drew people in closer to me, my eyes were opened to the fact that we all have "stuff" in our lives which we can justify being a victim to, or being depressed about, or sad because of. And I can't control what bad happens to me or to anyone I love. That realization sucks and it hurts. But it also confirms how important it is to choose my thoughts and how I feel, its the only thing I have control over.

I have a dozen things to be sad about, I also have a dozen things to be happy about and I get to choose which things I focus on.

I can focus on how it sucks to know that there is pain in my life and in my future and try my hardest to control and manipulate it to be something otherwise or I can confront and accept that I have no control and release the pressure of trying to do so. There is freedom in accepting that resisting what life throws at us does not mean sh*t won't happen. I have been resisting pain and sucky things happening to me ever since I can remember, well I can promise you it hasn't stop them from happening.

I love that I have an innate skill of giving people "reality checks" . Do you know why? No, I'm not evil (its always out of immense love) its because although a reality check stings at first and usually not for long, it is almost always followed by the world opening up for that person, a huge realization, extreme growth, and eventually a lot more joy. It brings people hope again, motivation again, passion, desire, etc. It's one of the best gifts we can give to someone.

I guess I just needed a reality check myself.

Now it's time I learn how to "go with the flow" with a smile on my face.

Lots of Love

Tiffany

Happy New Year! The Sum of 2011 and beginning of 2012.

2011-12-31T21:31:00.000-08:00

2011 was life changing but seems as if it was all setting me up for the future.

Here is my personal 2011 "highlights" or significant events.

1. Albert proposed and we got engaged.

2. I had my braces removed.

3. I had the mass in my hip removed and was diagnosed with cancer.

4. I changed my diet and began educating myself on nutrition, making my health a priority.

5. I also have grown with Albert throughout this year and we have become closer than I could have ever imagined.

6. My relationships with family and friends have changed drastically.

So either way 2012 brings a lot of change. Whether that change be not so pleasant change or very pleasurable change we won't know until next year is complete.

It's scary, I can tell you my plans for 2012 but we all know nothing works out as we plan.

Life is crazy and it always throws us curve balls and detours.

I guess I can tell you what I plan for 2012 and then I will be able to look back on it and see how much of it actually worked out.

My intentions for 2012.

1. For Albert, Joel, and I to buy and move into the perfect home for us (our home).

2. To marry Albert and have a wonderful wedding experience.

3. To be successful in a job or business in which is suitable for me and brings me a lot more joy than my current place of employment. Also an increase in our income would be great.

4. To have a healthy body and mind, overcoming cancer and feeling better than I have felt in years.

5. To continue to build closer and closer relationships with Albert, Joel, and those I hold dear to me.

I have a lot to lose and a lot to gain.

We'll see what 2012 has in store for me...... for us.

Good Friends and Past Friends! What is my role?

2011-10-31T04:21:00.001-07:00

I am wondering where the balance lies between creating boundaries (loving and respecting oneself) and accepting someone as they are (unconditional love).

I am really working through this concept of friends. I know I have had many many great people in my life. I know I have very positive intentions and would never hurt someone intentionally. I know I love to make people happy and love to see them have what they want. Yet, friends seem to drift away in my life. They are still there but neither I nor the other person makes an effort to connect.

I have always felt that I am the one that made all the effort to keep friendships alive with exception to my friend Melissa. I text people to get together, I call or email, I make the connection for a while but ultimately I am also the one that lets the friendship die. Something always occurs that makes me distance myself.

Now I am coming to a point where I am starting to question this. Over the years, I have built some very deep friendships with Vicki and Crystal. Who are two people I can trust without a doubt, people who respect me and whom I respect. Friends I love very deeply.

But with all these dozens of other people in my life (past friendships) still around and still experiencing "old stuff" between myself and the other person, I can't help but question the role I played in the breakdown in these friendships. And how much of that still needs to be worked through and healed within myself.

Some of these people in my past have hurt me, some of them disrespected me, some probably felt disrespected by me but what is it that I need to heal within myself in order to heal some of these relationships, as well as let some others go.

I have no desire to have people in my life that don't respect me or like me. I am okay with that and don't need others to like me. But what I find I do need is for others to be honest about who they are and what they feel. I have discovered I am still attracting more people into my life that create a sense of confusion and make me doubt myself. What is still alive within me that is attracting these people to me?

How do we know who to trust? How do we know what issues we are creating because of insecurities within ourselves and what issues are actually real and a true concern?

I see how it's hard for me to be vulnerable with people. Does this create an "energy" or "sense" of competitiveness or protection against them?

I fear the second someone is not perfect that I become protective which causes unnecessary strain on friendships. However, I also fear not protecting myself from people who are hurtful and don't have my best interest in mind.

How do you distinguish between the two? How do I find the healthy balance of those two?

Whatever it may be, I hope to work through the issues that cause me to be distant, defensive and protective towards those who deserve trust and respect. And I hope to get to a place where I automatically keep distance from those who are not healthy for me.

I welcome any light into this, any feelings you get from me, thoughts, concerns or your own experience with me that you feel is relevant. For personal feedback email me: LoveGrowth@gmail.com

I respect when someone can be brutally honest with me. The reason why Vicki and Crystal are so close to me is because they understand me, they don't take my forward honesty as an attack and also because they are bluntly honest with me so I have a deep respect for them.

Without honest feedback from those around us, we are not able to see ourselves from another persons perspective. I owe a lot of my growth to those who have had the courage to be honest with me and to not be offended by my honesty (which truly comes from my heart).

I look forward to hearing from you.

Loving and Joy,

Tiffany

P.S. If I have ever offended you or anyone by my very direct honesty, I apologize that is never my intentions. When I care about someone, is when I am the most honest and forward. When I do not give feedback is when I don't really care. So please, If I ever seemed to be harsh on you, its only because I cared. It is only who I am and not an attack. However, I realize I can be a bit more compassionate and address things from a place that doesn't seem judgmental, I will work on it. Lots of Love

Enjoy

Nothing I claim to be facts, just my thoughts.

2011-07-09T12:08:00.000-07:00

If you are a person who knows me well you know that I truly believe that what I experience in life is a reflection of my thoughts, feelings, and things going on inside me. And that I am 100% responsible for my life and what I experience.

However, I am in a human body so with a human mind and this physical reality appears to be happening to me.

So as a kind of way of throwing myself wide-open, showing who I truly am at this time and really working through a lot of thoughts I am having, I am going to share my opinions of life and others.

First is that someone who is true and real will care about you and be there even when they don't agree with you. I see so many people jumping friend to friend according to who agrees with them. That must be a lonely road to go down.

I know my life has drastically changed many times in the last year or so and it really showed me a lot about people and where they are in their lives. Meaning it says a lot about me, what is says I don't know. I know the people I want in my lives and the people I respect are people who allowed me to go down whatever paths where best for me, without judgment or distance. Now I have learned to do the same. As those I love make decisions either that I like or don't like, I can just love them through it and be there. It's a wonderful and real thing.

I also see how money changes people. I always tell Albert if you want to see who someone truly is give them money and power. That isn't only in a negative way their are plenty of people with money being very generous and still treating people as equals.

But recently I have noticed something else. Anybody who perceives themselves to have not enough will also be expressing their true selves but they will try to hide it. I see people at work claim to be someone's friend but try to take every tip as possible without any regard to "their friend". I see people turn on someone as soon as they benefit from the situation.

I am not claiming to be better than this, or that I don't do this or that I do. I am simple stating what bothers me in an effort to take an honest look at myself which is something I preach all the time.

I read self improvement books, do workshops, have conscious friends, have a life coach and try to do my best to always be positive and growing.

But I am not perfect and I don't claim to be. I would love to live from my heart 100% of the time, yet I have two people in my life in which really give me negative feelings inside. This shows how far I am from living 100% in my heart.

I wish I could clearly write about these people but I don't want to offend or hurt anyone's feelings. Maybe at some point I will but as for now I guess I can address what I can't seem to let go of about these two.

The characteristics I have issues with are:

Kissing someone's ass and turning around and talking negatively about them, being shady, being lazy, not being true to their word (their word depends on who they are talking to), not doing anything with their life, living off of others, doing nothing with their life but sleep, eat and burp, claiming to be someone's friend but not thinking twice about screwing them over in an instant if it benefits them. ( I could go on but it doesn't feel like focusing on this is serving me.)

I guess what I am learning from this is that I feel better about addressing the qualities I see missing and the qualities I value. Respect, Integrity, Taking care of business (not sure what to call that quality, lol), Honesty, Loyalty, Responsibility, and being a man (sorry can't come up with anything else for that either).

I am tempted to start spilling out how I behave and make decisions, etc..... But my intentions are not to claim I am better than anyone, as I am not. My intentions are to work through these feelings I have towards these behaviors or people who behave in this way.

I know one way of addressing some of these things are to focus on the things I do like. The qualities in the people I choose to have around me that I admire and respect. So for now, that is my answer, that is where I will put my attention.

Here's to those that I choose to have around me and what I love about them. Lots of Love.

My new life!

2011-07-01T16:38:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to give an update to my situation with Albert.

Albert started trying to come back around in October of 2010 with a lot to say and I wanted to hear none of it. After some time I gave him a chance, to at least speak.

Albert said a lot of things but words are just words. I needed proof that things weren't the way I thought they were and no matter what he lied and did things you don't do to someone you love.

After some time of him showing me physical proof, papers, documents, talking to other people, him even talking to my parents, etc.. I decided to give him a chance.

I don't regret it one bit, some people have their opinions........ Let's just say I have a lot of respect and love for those of you who trusted me and supported me through everything.

The rest is history. He has been amazing, it took me some time to work through all the damage that was done, to this day he is still very patient and works with me through anything and everything that comes up.

He then proposed at the end of March.

He has become the best step father Joel could ever have and the best boyfriend/fiance/husband a woman could ever dream of. He still doesn't and never will let me walk all over him, he definitely wears the pants but he treats me like a queen and that is the balance I have always wanted. I need a man who can handle me and not let my ways control him, but I also need him to treat me like the most precious thing to him.

Last Tuesday I was surprised with roses and Thursday I was taken on a surprise date all just because he loves me. A girl couldn't ask for more.

Near the end of June we set a date for the wedding.

We will be getting married June 24th, 2012 at Pomona Valley Mining Co.

We plan on buying a house in January. Although he will actually be buying it since I don't make much money, it is our house. And we plan on having kids shortly after, when we can afford for me not to work.

Now it is time to get the other two areas in my life aligned with who I am and headed in the direction I would like.

One - My career, I want to wake up excited to do what I do. I want to enjoy what I do. And I want to help people feel better and enjoy their lives. Preferable making money through my own business or businesses of helping others in one way or another. I would later like Albert and Joel to get involved in the businesses. I want to have free time to do what I want to do but also have the ability to make money when I would like. I know if I can do it, I can believe that others can and I can help them realize and actualize their own dreams.

Two - My body and weight. Albert says I shouldn't worry about it, he loves me the way I am and I should just remember that. But its beyond how he or anyone else sees me. I want to feel good physically. I want my body to function properly with lots of energy and I want to feel good when I look into the mirror. That doesn't mean I need to be a size 2, it just means I need to know I am healthy and feel it.

Until next time.......

Dramatic changes in the direction of my life. (Deceit, Betrayal, & a New Life)

2010-08-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

I took a trip to Sedona, AZ in the beginning of July.

I was told while in Sedona, which is a very spiritual place, that I was in the beginning of some huge shifts in my life.

They weren't kidding.

Within days of arriving home from Sedona, I discover that the man I thought of as my beloved partner who I was devoted to, was not the man I thought he was at all. It turned out he was living a double life and everything I knew about him was a lie.

Anyone who knew me, knew how much I loved that man. I would have stood by him until the day one of us died. This was by far the hardest and most painful things I have ever gone through.

I can tell you through all of it and still going through it, that I definitely know what I want in life. I sacrificed myself for four and half years. I put myself before him because of my immense love for him. Within seconds of discovering who he really was, I knew my life would change forever. There is not much a person can do to make me CLOSE down completely to them for good. I went from completely devoted to him to completely closed to him within the matter of hours.

I can say with confidence that there is NOTHING he could say or do that would have me want him in my life. I have zero desire for him in my life.

I was surprised to see this in myself. I have always been intelligent and a pretty determined person. But my emotions have been my weakness. I was happy to see that there was a line I wouldn't let someone cross and that I had boundaries, although it should have happened much sooner.

And although at times the hurt has been very hard, I am very happy with my life. I feel very free. Not in the sense of not being tied to someone but in the sense of being myself. I see I played small in my relationship. I bought into his opinions. The fear of losing something/someone will always confine you. Living with so much less fear is liberating.

I can tell you that my world is expanding at rapid speeds. The funny thing is from the outside, there may not be much obvious change other than not having a deceitful boyfriend anymore but inside me so much has changed.

I feel happier, less anxiety, excitement for my future, and on the verge of some huge things happening.

I am so happy I had no ties to him. That I was so lucky to get a clean break.

Now anything is possible.

I thought I would never be attracted to another person the way I was attracted to him and I can just say that was completely untrue.

I truly enjoy getting to know other people, other men, and most of all getting to know myself.

I have an amazing friend (Thank you, JOSH!) who has really been helping me raise my vibration. My son told me that I seem more "lively". What a wonderful thing to be called. My relationships with almost everyone are becoming much more deeper.

I am reconnecting with friends with whom I missed so much.

Although scary, hard, and hurtful this has been magical, wonderful, and super empowering.

I used to be scared to declare what I want. To go BIG. I felt weird, scared, and really just not worthy of "going big" in life.

Now I can. I want it all. I am asking for it all. AND I am going after it all!

Including: Making a very good living doing something I truly love, A wonderful fulfilling relationship with a man who respects and adores me, a healthy beautiful body, and lots of amazing people and opportunities.

I can see it possible now to truly enjoy my life.

I hope to never give my power away again. And I am working on it make sure of it.

I am even becoming creative. Having desires to garden, paint and express myself in ways I never thought of before. Dancing and even singing!

It just feels so good to let "me" be free and enjoy life.

My main intention is to learn how to do this more and more and more. Within relationships, within my career, within my entire life.

How did I ever think I could be happy with that man.

I guess my point is, even though sometimes things are hard and are very very "wrong", we can still gain from them.

What that man did was very wrong and very harmful. He has some major issues! But I can dwell on what he did to me or I can focus on who I am. And you know what. I am an honest person. I am a person who loves with all my heart. I am a person who is loyal and respectful. I am a person who is open minded and loves to grow. I am a person who is not capable of hurting someone that way. And you know what.... I LOVE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And to be honest I still love him. I love who he was with me. I love a part of him that I know I truly felt. But I have no desire for him in my life. I desire SOOOOO much more.

My world just got a whole lot bigger.

I still have a lot to work to go through, a lot of growth. I still hurt sometimes in ways I wish on NO ONE. And I am pushing through it and I WILL get through it. And I will LOVE again.

Next time I won't hold back, I won't hold back because I wont have any reason to.

Thanks for listening.

Amazing stuff to come.

Single Mother raising a boy

2010-03-27T00:55:00.000-07:00

I received a rude awakening yesterday.

I am a single mother to a 12 year old boy who is coming into his teenage years. He needs discipline, he needs someone to teach him work, to teach him self discipline, to be able to teach him how to be a good man.

How does a woman teach a boy how to be a man?

It felt like I was going to have to compromise my very close mothering and nurturing relationship with my son in order to start teaching him more "manly" things because he doesn't have a father around to do so.

My boyfriend has been really helping me with this but he is not here 24/7 and is not in the position yet to start enforcing rules on him. I don't want to have to be this hard firm mother. I just want to love my son. I know my role as a parent is not to do what I want, its to guide him to be a happy healthy adult.

I am curious of how other single mothers with boys have helped their boys become good men.

I also realize that what I lack in teaching him like "hard work" and "taking care of business" is not something I do well myself either. So I am struggling with this.

My son is so close to me. He's honest, respectful, he loves to make me happy, and is very mature for his age. However, he lacks self discipline (we both do) and responsibility.

Things are going to have to drastically change, if I want to teach my son these values.

I can't believe I didn't see this coming.

This is helping me become more conscious of my own lack of self discipline. I have always believed in leading by example so this means a lot of changes for me as well. However, I can not be a man so its going to be an interesting journey to see how this plays out.

I just need to write.

2010-01-29T02:12:00.001-08:00

Happiness! Isn't that what everyone wants?

At least for me over the past months or years my desires have begun to separate from happiness. My main goal in life is not to obtain all that I desire, My main goal is to be happy. Although I do plan on experiencing everything I desire and more!

Most make the mistake assuming when they obtain those things in life in which they desire is when they will have happiness and most have yet to learn that is entirely untrue. A lot of people who get everything they want are more miserable than those of us in which life has been challenging. We think we know what we want until we get it.

What about just trusting that we already have what we need to be happy. Yes, I know I am repeating that old cliche, but its true. However, what is one to do when you discover happiness is not outside of oneself, but has yet to find happiness inside oneself.

I can truly say I am happy with who I am, I am proud of who I have become. I never gave up on myself and I did the work to be where I am today. I am discovering that no other person, place, or thing can truly make me happy. They can bring me pleasure, yes, but true lasting happiness I KNOW comes from a deep internal state within myself.

At times I feel limited, restricted, needing to break free. I currently have no outlet as most have. I don't drink or party, I don't have a job that pumps me full of adrenaline, I don't have a drama filled life anymore (most of the time), I don't have any extreme sports or other outlets in which to express myself.

I can see how I limit myself. I can see how I can be that person singing, dancing, really connecting with something, fully expressing who I am. I have it in me. Yet, it sits, dormant. Everything happens for a reason and I look forward to the day when I have no inhibitions and just allow myself to let go.

Although my life is amazing, I still get the feeling I am playing small. There is so much more inside me. Its just learning how to play big, learning what BIG is for me?

It's not a perfect job, or marriage, or kids, or new seminar. It's something within me. I know expression and connection have something to do with it.

I wonder when I will find MY intensity.

Until then, in the meantime I am practicing trusting and surrendering. Surrender? What does that mean? I have no idea what letting go looks like, I don't know what trusting looks like. It has been me against the world for as long as I can remember. If I didn't fight for myself, no one else would.

It's time I take a chance, put my sword down and see where life will take me. I may get stabbed in the heart without my shield or any way to protect myself but its a risk I am willing to take. Now I just need to learn how to do it.

Trust! A word used so liberally and one in which I hear daily. Yet I don't think I truly know the experience of trust. I have never learned how to trust. Not myself, not life, not God, not anyone else.

So it is my current journey to learn how to trust ME! To trust Life, To trust God, and to trust the man I love.

Now thats a tall order!

Love and Joy,

Tiffany

Authenticity

2009-12-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

As much and as hard as I have worked on being authentic and real, I still have more to go.

I notice that before I say or do things I think of the consequences, I change things, lighten things, etc. in order to manipulate what I think the outcome would be. And I am not talking about huge manipulations just minor ones.

Such as how to tell someone that I love that I need something from them. Instead of just telling them and asking them if they will do it, I find myself trying to convince them, or saying it in a way that would be more appealing to them.

This may seem like no big deal to most but to me it is. It is because if I can't trust myself to real I will never be able to trust anything anyone else is saying or doing. I am always questioning what everyones ulterior motive is.

On the same note trying to slightly convince someone of something is not trusting. Its the opposite of trusting, its try to force things. No matter how slight it is, it is still not trusting. And I intend to live my life and in faith and trust.

The concepts I refer to all the time are:
"Everything happens for a reason."
"Everything is perfect."

I am starting to truly live by these more and more and but as I said, I still got a little ways to go.

I am grateful for my growth and how authentic of a person I am now and I have no doubt that any of my "hidden" areas with have light shined onto them. It is my intention to live free and REAL.

Change within stillness, trust, confidence and the unknown.

2009-12-21T02:24:00.000-08:00

I haven't posted in quite some time. Even as I set the intention to write often, I slip out of expressing myself and fall back into the old habit of staying in my own mind.

Today has been very reflective and I must say, not much has changed over the past few months in my life yet it feels as if everything has changed.

I don't have any evidence to show or explain how my life has changed. From another persons perspective that would be looking at my life from the outside, I am sure they would say nothing at all has changed. Yet some how it has.

I guess the biggest change is that I am ready for life. Everyday I am more and more ready for whatever life has in store for me. Sometimes I look back and see how challenging my life has been, how nothing has really gone smoothly for me and this used to scare me. To be honest it still does at times, but more and more I am ready to see what comes next. The fear is melting away of it being bad, which it might. It might just be more challenges and more pain. But it also might be greatness, excitement, joy, love... I am more ready today than I was yesterday and the day before that or before that.

Am I scared to see what life has in store for me? Boy am I. But I am now at a point where I am learning to trust, I am learning to relax (just a little! lol, I said learning) and try not to control every moment. I am becoming more flexible, a little more confident, curious, and just surrendering.

Instead of trying to force life to go my way with every once of energy I have, I am learning to relax and just observe what unfolds before me. This has not been easy and at times I fall back into old habits but just the mere fact that I can even do it a little, is so beautiful.

So my point....... I don't have any changes or wonderful progress to report. Same job, same school, same relationship situation, same living situation. But I am freer than I ever have been. I anticipate that it(the feeling of being free) will only increase. Words can not describe the type of progress I feel. Perhaps it isn't progress, perhaps its more of undoing of limitation. Undoing the mental and emotional restrictions, I have placed on life. What ever it is, Today I am just a little more free!

In the next year or so my life is going to change in some very drastic ways and what can be the scariest thing is I really don't know what those changes will be, I just know they are coming in every area of my life I am at a place of transition, of some type of movement being the only option. Graduation, Living Situation changing, Relationship changing, much much more.

Next year, I could be married in a new house and a baby on the way or I could be single in a wonderful job enjoying lots of new experiences or anything in between. But thats wild, I just don't know what my life will look like a year from now and unlike a lot of people I don't even have a clue of what it will look like.

The only thing I know is I am me.

What ever this change I feel (trust, confidence, faith) is and even if its only for the moment or for a few moments, I look forward to watching it expand and feel more and more of it. I am sure it will be tested, thats what life has been about for me, but all I can say is how I feel right now. And right now I am just a little less scared of change and a little more free. I don't know what life has in store for me but I know it will be interesting at the very least. Big changes, I think.

I just felt the urge to write tonight.

Life is OK. :-)

My experience with Byron Katie

2009-11-07T22:24:00.000-08:00

Today I attended a workshop, "Loving What Is" with Byron Katie.

I have been reading about Byron Katie and doing her work for a while now.

I have to say if you are not familiar with Byron Katie, most of her work is free at www.Thework.com.

A lot of things she says are so profound yet so simple its like having multiple aha moments at once listening just by listening to her.

"It's your thoughts that make you secure or insecure." -Byron Katie

Here is an example she has given. If when you were little you thought your father was in his room, while you were in the kitchen. You felt secure. Even though wasn't in the same room with you and you couldn't see him. When really he left to the store without you realizing it and was hit by a truck. But you still feel secure because you are believing he is in the other room.

Its the belief he is in the other room which makes you feel secure. Not reality. It goes the other way around as well. Its your belief about reality that makes you feel stress, not reality itself.

Byron Katie has said "You can have a heart attack, thinking about how your going to die and you can't believe its happening to you and all the bad things that will follow. Or you can have a heart attack, thinking how interesting, I am having a heart attack I wonder what happens next. Either way you are having a heart attack, but you get to choose whether you do it in peace or not.

The best thing we can do is to learn to love reality. When you love what is, you never suffer, no matter what happens.

We can reach this point by questioning our beliefs and thoughts.

I heard a statistic once that we have around 60,000 thoughts per day and 99% of them are the same thoughts we had the day before and something around that same percentage are the amount of thoughts that are untrue.

Think about this, think about any thought you have. "I should be..................." Feel in the blank (ex. I should be doing laundry). And find all the ways his isn't true, why its not true (Well I wouldn't be writing this blog). However this is just to show how your thoughts can be false. This is not how Byron Katie does inquiry and I will post her four questions of inquiry below.

Our reality is created by what we believe. So do you believe thoughts that cause you pain or create peace. If they cause you any discomfort you can use Byron Katie's The Work, to inquiry and see if they are true. To find the truth, to find peace.

The work has really started to reshape the relationship that I have with my thoughts and Byron Katie has the most serving way of helping, by offering the work for free. She even has a support line for free in order to help people with inquiry.

It doesn't hurt to try it.

Lots of love.

My intention for this life

2009-10-25T16:45:00.000-07:00

My ultimate goal of my life is to come to a place where I love reality, enjoy the present, accept everyone and everything for who and what they are.

Most importantly to just love. To be happy and loving.

The question is how do I get to this place and how do I get back when I have strayed of track?
This blog serves as a reminder.

The only thing I can do is continue with this intent, continue to observe myself, to contemplate, to focus on my own growth, to help others grow, and most importantly to come to love as soon as it is remembered.

I have noticed that I don't get as far off track of this as I used to. I also come back to it much quicker each time and every time I come back to it, its deeper and clearer.

Although I accept that life will never be perfect, it is my intent to live in this loving place in life as much as possible.

I want to express love, Expect Miracles and Magic, and live in Joy and Gratitude, enjoying my life.

Get Happy

2009-10-18T15:21:00.000-07:00

I just listened to a short video about being happy, which I included below.

Its so simple but so powerful. The answer to everything is to get happy. Do I go to the gym today? Yes or No, which one will make me happy. Do I go to class today? Yes or No, which one will make me happy.

It's not about what others think you should do or what you feel like doing. You do what makes you happy. Should I stay in this job? Yes or No, which one will make me happy.

Not what is easy or hard. But what makes you happy. It's such a simple way to maneuver through life.

Just listening to the Video made me feel better, inspired and empowered. Now contemplating the ideas and how it works in my life makes me feel even more wonderful.

I think some singing and dancing is long over do!

Lots of Love

The Greatest Manifestation Principle in the World. Really?

2009-10-15T18:10:00.000-07:00

I just finished reading the book, The Greatest Manifestation Principle in the World by Carnelian Sage and when I first started reading the book I was going to throw it away.

The first two and half chapters of the book are negative and pretty much do nothing but attack the some of the teachings of the Law of Attraction.

I have to agree that the Law of Attraction is just a very basic level of metaphysics and spirituality. However, most people who are first introduced to the movie, The Secret or any other principles of the law of attraction usually have never considered the fact that they can even choose the thoughts they think.

I think the current ideas of law of attraction and even the movie, The Secret, definitely has its place. I may not completely agree with everything but I can say I LOVE what it is doing. These things are the start of people becoming conscious of their thoughts and focusing on personal and spiritual growth, this alone is worth ANY of the slight disagreements some may have with it.

That being said I am so glad I was at the gym so and decided to continue reading the book Carnelian Sage wrote, The greatest manifestation principle in the world, because what unfolded after the first two chapters was absolutely perfect.

I really wish she would have removed the negative from the book and just spoke of the principle, however I do feel the rest of the book is completely worth getting through the first two chapters or even skipping them.

I 100% agree with the principle Carnelian speaks of in her book. She includes a very powerful exercise which seems too simple, to have any result at all. Yet I tried it, all the while with my ego screaming, "Why bother, nothing ever works for you." But I did the exercise anyways and I was grateful I did. The immediate impact this exercise is worth the entire book alone.

I highly recommend the book, just skip the first two chapters. I won't give away her secrets but for those who know me, I will give you a hint. It's what I tend to speak about as my truth or true self. :o) Carnelian just makes it so direct and simple.

Enjoy!

P.S. From now on you can get to information about any book or movie I mention by clicking on the title. If I forget to link it, I would be grateful to be reminded.

Living Life With A Purpose

2009-10-07T18:26:00.000-07:00

Do you know what the purpose of your life is?

In my opinion its what you make it. And if you don't take the time to create or define your life purpose, then your living a life for no defined purpose and with no direction.

I believe spiritually we have a purpose whether we are consciously aware of it or not. However, consciously choosing a purpose for your life can have huge benefits.

Most people without a purpose will fall into a routine of survival or just getting by. I don't know about you but but at least for me,I certainly don't want to live that way. I have bigger aspirations that "just getting by".

When we define our life purpose, it can change many things. Every time we make a decision, we make it based on a purpose rather than what mood we are in that day, or how secure or confident we feel that day, or any of the hundreds of other reasons our decisions vary from day to day.

When you consciously have a purpose for your life, it has an impact on your thoughts, decisions, actions, and creates motivation.

I believe that there is one more very important reason to have a life purpose!!!!!

Have you ever paid attention to how many thoughts you have a day? Our thoughts and beliefs create our reality! So if you give the power of your thoughts over to chance or whatever they default to, you have NO POWER in what type of life you create.

Here is the definition:

Purpose: An anticipated outcome that is intended or that guides your planned actions.

Even in this definition you can see how powerful a purpose is, let alone a LIFE PURPOSE.

Its easy to find a life purpose and it can change over time, there are many different exercises to help us clearly define what our life purpose is. It could be as simple as asking yourself what your purpose is? This is not what anyone else thinks your purpose is and its not what you have been told your purpose is. Its your life purpose that you decide and choose to live for.

My favorite way of finding life's purpose is to write about it until you almost want to cry or you get emotional about it. Some people have a specific question to ask over and over again until you feel emotional, etc. However I think just writing about your thoughts and feeling in regards to your life purpose will eventually lead you there.

What drives you? What excites you? What would make you wake up everyday with a smile on your face? Think Big! And remember to be Authentic.

Life purpose's can evolve and they will. At first it might not be too clear or defined and as you start making choices according to your purpose and follow that path, the purpose will evolve and become more and more clear.

Give your thoughts a direction, take some responsibility and power in the life you create!

What is your life purpose?

Seeking Approval and Needing Love

2009-10-03T00:59:00.000-07:00

I believe most of us go through life wanting to be understand, accepted, loved, cherished, or acknowledged, just to name a few.

Is this wrong? Of course not, but does it allow for a happy, fulfilling life?

Actually in my opinion it makes it impossible. It is impossible to feel any one of these things from even one person all of the time. If this is what we seek, we will always be disappointed at some time or another. Most likely more than not.

It is obvious the degree in which we seek these things vary from person, day, situations, and to time in our lives, however I think we do it so much it has become subconscious. We smile a little bigger than we truly feel, don't interrupt people even when we want, we have an automatic answer to how we are doing, we pretend to care about everyones dramas, we don't call people on their lies, ..... I can go on forever but if you look deeply as why we do these things, its because of how we think we might look to another person.

How would the world be if everyone walked around being 100% authentic. Only saying "I love you", when you absolutely feel it, only smiling when it comes from so deep within that you couldn't stop it if you wanted to, fully expressing that you feel crappy when your having a crappy day, etc..

Byron Katie's work has brought this to my attention and now that I have been aware of it, I have noticed how ingrained it is. At least within myself. I have come to a few realizations.

I notice I pretend behaviors when I know people are looking at me, stand differently, talk differently, I'm polite when I am not even aware that I am saying it (Thank you, Excuse me), stand taller, "appear" confident, pretend not to care, etc.. And this mostly just to people I don't really know and will probably never see again.

And the act is amplified when we are around people in which we want or need something from, especially emotionally. Once you have a need from someone I can almost 100% guarantee that that our behaviors become almost impossible to keep authentic at all times. It could be anything from, not saying what is one your mind knowing you would piss them off, trying to please them, trying to keep them from getting angry, lying completely to avoid hurting their feelings, etc..

And we do these things because we fear losing what we want from them. Most of the time it comes down to their love. But yet these people can't truly love US, if we are not being our true US. Let me say that again in another way. Someone can not love YOU, if you are not being YOU. Someone can not truly love ME for me, If I am not being ME!

If you are pretending AT ALL, even if the person responds with love you will not completely feel it because they are responding to a false YOU, a pretend YOU and whether you consciously realize this or not, it effects how you feel.

As long as we are not being our true selves we can not FEEL the love we yearn for.

As long as we are not expressing ourselves authentically we can not be truly understood.

In this understanding I have come to the conclusion that the only love and approval we need is our own.

Ask yourself , "What would I do in this moment so that I would approve of myself?" NO ONE ELSE.

"What would I do in this situation that is me Loving myself?" "What can I do to Love myself?"

We do not need to impress, please, or gain approval from our family, friends, lovers, spouse, children, co-workers, strangers, authority figures, or anyone.

The only approval YOU need is your own.

That is why it is said that "You can not love anyone until you love yourself", in my opinion this is because if you do not love yourself you are seeking it from another. And if you are seeking something from someone, you can not possibly be giving them something. Your motive is to get.

Exercise:

Next time you become aware of any moment in which you are concerned with how someone else sees or feels about you, stop for a moment and ask how you see or what you feel about yourself. Then take action accordingly.

Enjoy your day. You are the only You.

P.S. I wanted to make it clarify that I don't feel that this discovering is a bad thing. Actually writing this blog felt very empowering and authentic. I believe consciously realizing that the only person I really need to focus on love and approval of is of my own felt really liberating. This is not to imply a selfishness or lack of love for others. Actually its quite the contrary. When I don't need love from others, I am free to truly Love them for who they are. Without my own needs and expectations. The more I fulfill my own need for love and approval the more I am able to freely love others.

What do you use your mind for?

2009-09-24T00:17:00.000-07:00

Do you use your mind to bring you pain or do you use it to bring you joy?

When focusing on what we don't want, not only are we in ego, fearing something that has not happened yet, you are using your mind to create pain for you as well as produce a life of undesired manifestations.

Or you can choose to focus on what you want to create, align yourself with how the creator would think (which remember with God all things are possible) and enjoy your thoughts, which will produce a life of desired manifestations.

It's that simple of a concept.

Think of your thoughts as workers. Are you using your workers to produce things in which you want or things in which you don't want.

You attract that in which you ARE. You ARE what you think about.

Taking the time every day to contemplate and consciously redirect our thoughts to things we wish to create, not only helps us create a life more desirable but it also is more pleasurable in the moment of the thought.

Either way we don't know if either thought is absolutely true. The one in which we desire or the one in which we do not desire. However it makes sense if one of these feels better to think about and also puts us closer to attracting it into our lives, to choose that thought. It makes no sense to choose the thought that makes us miserable and only attracts more in which we do not desire.

It's about making a conscious effort to keep redirecting our thoughts onto which we wish to create. And it helps to remind ourselves that with God anything is possible (as I wrote about in my last blog). Helpful questions to realign our thoughts are, "What would God do?" Or "What would God think?" or "How would God feel?", etc..

Aligning ourselves to the way God thinks... Anything is possible, Focused only on Love and Understanding, Knowing everything is perfect, etc. immediately gives us a more joyful life.

And if you doubt this fact, think about this, "Tomorrow is going to be a very bad day."

How did that make you feel?

Now think, "Tomorrow is going to be a Wonderful day."

Now how did that feel?

The effects are IMMEDIATE. Why would you choose anything different?

I said it was simple, not easy. But sooooo worth the practice!

Think like God thinks.

2009-09-23T01:52:00.000-07:00

With God all things are possible.

This is what saves me. This is what pulls me out of ego, ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. But what does this really mean.

Well if Anything is possible, then thinking like God thinks would mean there are no reasons why life can't be exactly as we want it. But most of the time it isn't....... So now what?

This is because we don't and I certainly don't think like GOD thinks. I have to remind myself constantly that all things are possible. And still do I truly believe it?

I think that if we thought like God thought every second of every day, we would be happy, anything WOULD be possible, and life would be amazing, amusing, and fun.

If only there was a way to remember this every few seconds. Think like God thinks.

I know if I did I would have more patience while driving. I would smile more. I would have more patience with everyone in my life. I wouldn't feel so frustrated when people made decisions that I disagreed with. I wouldn't feel like I NEEDED to do anything. I would watch everything in life with amazement. I would love without wanting anything from anyone. I wouldn't need anyone or anything to be different than they already are.

Is this too tall of an order to ask of a person living in this physical world playing the game of Life?

Is it possible to think like God thinks? Would it take years of meditating, discipline and practice in order to even come close to living in this manner.

Am I setting myself up to fail by even considering this being possible? Is it possible for you? Is it possible for others?

At times just saying, "Anything is Possible" can completely change my thinking, but at other times I am filled with nothing more than doubt. To think like God thinks would be an absence of all doubt.

Maybe its about finding something powerful enough that works for each one of us individually. I have heard many religious people use the phrase "What would Jesus do?" Which may work for them.

I wonder what would work for me. What do you think would work for you?

"What would love do?", "What would source do?", "What would God do?", "What would Spirit do?".

It would have to be powerful enough to really transform your thoughts in the midst of the dramatic ego controlling your thoughts and actions.

All these words mean the same thing to me (Love, God, Source, Spirit), yet depending on how they are used each one carries a different power.

It would be an accomplishment if I even succeeded at remembering this a few times a day, let alone all day.

Maybe I could actually make this a part of my life and not just another concept I would "like" to adapt but never really come to light.

Instead of focusing on "trying" to make this a part of my life, maybe a better intention is to remind others that, "With God all things are possible, and what would God do" with whatever circumstances they are facing.

It's another practical way to go beyond the ego and come from the place inside us that is Spirit, to come from our hearts, reconnecting us with Source. I guess thats always the intention. I have noticed that when I am coming from my heart (Spirit), I am happy and joyful. When I am in a place that is dominated by ego is when I experience suffering and pain.

It is such a powerful practice to "Think like God thinks" and come from that place within us.

My intention is not only to remember to live from that place myself but to help others do the same.

If you receive a text, an email, a tweet, or even more blogs about this don't be surprised.

ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE

Negative Feelings Towards Others, People who cause harm, lie, control, and manipulate.

2009-09-20T11:34:00.000-07:00

The second half of this can be very powerful should you choose to read it.

I uncovered some very ugly feelings towards some people in my life and around me.

One of them I feel is vital to let go of and move beyond because this person will always be a part of my life.

I am well aware that these feelings which I have formed and housed within myself do not serve me and my intention is to release and heal them.

Many of the feelings I have inside me for other people have a common theme. All these people tend to lie, manipulate, and are not authentic. I do not know who they really are and I am inclined to believe they do not know themselves either.

I have tried going to a place of at least feeling pity for these type of people. Pity would be a step up from the anger and disgust I feel when I think about it.

Let me explain (Bare with me it won't stay negative, It helps to clarify what I am speaking about)

I don't understand why anyone would change who they are and what they say every moment in order to convince, control, or manipulate a situation. I know many many people including myself have resorted to tactics of manipulation. I am not discussing that here. I am speaking of extreme cases. Where these people are doing it 24-7. The type of people who will walk over anyone to get what they want. The type of people who will smile at you and pretend to care but are walking away trying to deceive you in some way and would the second it would benefit them. The type of people that lie so much they don't know what the truth is. They use anything they can to control people and manipulate people to do what they want. They judge people and will not hesitate to harm someone as long as that person has nothing to offer them. In order for these type of people to continue to care or "be nice" to you, you must have something to offer them or something they want from you. They talk badly about everyone in their life to others, everyone is wrong and bad and they will produce stories in order to convince others of this.

I am tempted to use names to describe these people as fake, liars, etc... But I know that these are not who these people are deep down, these are just behaviors. Behaviors I seem to have major issues with, nontheless they are just behaviors.

I can't seem to understand these people. My intention is to love all through their decisions and find only understanding and compassion. This has proved to be a challenge at this point for me. I don't understand why anyone would hurt others. How anyone could be so shut off and selfish that they constantly harm others with only care of themselves. Their love is always conditional, they seem to love but deep inside they have lots of reasons why the person they love is bad and they can't stand them. They will not show this as long as they have something they want from the person they express love for. I don't understand why people would lie and make up stories. I don't understand why most people don't call people on this type of behavior. I am sure most people here know of a person like this and it is so obvious to us who these people have chosen to be and what choices they chose to make. Yet most of us say nothing, we walk away when we love ourselves enough but no one seems to say anything. These people have no idea how obvious their behavior is.

I have several people in my life like this. At one level I am angry and disgusted with people like this. I just don't understand why someone would choose to live their life this way and how someone could treat other people with such disregard and disrespect, even just another human being, let alone someone they "pretend" to care about.

At another level I have found pity. I feel sorry, no one will ever see the true person they are. Can you imagine how lonely that is, not knowing yourself and NO ONE ever REALLY knowing you? I feel so bad that these people feel they need to lie, control, and manipulate in order to feel loved and important. I can't imagine what type of thoughts they have going on inside their minds.

They cause such harm and pain in most peoples lives that they have a role in. Yet it is my only intention to see these people with love and for the people they are deep inside. I must move past my own pain and stories I have within myself that relate to these people in my life. My pain is my own, my story is my own, these people may not ever change yet I have the ability to heal my pain, remove my story and find understanding and compassion for these people and everyone like them.

They are unique expressions of god and are nothing less than beautiful light that have been covered by their limiting thoughts, habits, and actions. Their deep love of who they are is nothing less than the love from anyone else. Their hurtful actions are merely my egos interpretation of what their ego should or should not be doing.

It is only out of their programming that they do what they do. They only want love, they have forgotten that they are love and they don't need to lie, manipulate, control or pretend in order to get love.

I choose to work on seeing these people only from a place of love, compassion and understanding.

Their love does not stop, only the egos idea of expressing the love that they have. Whether they choose harmful actions or not, deep inside that love is the same. They are very disconnected from spirit, but that is who they are, not their ego.

I can choose not to allow these types of people with these behaviors to have a role or impact in my life but I can still choose to love them anyway.

No one is ever doing anything to me, my spirit. It is merely their ego doing it to themselves.

I choose to focus on and strengthen this truth inside myself, inside my perception of these people, inside all that I love, inside everyone I see.

I choose to see the light in all beings, I choose to see past the handicap behavior of the ego, I choose to see love in all, I choose to see god in everyone.

I choose to see that these spirits have such dominating and strong egos who completely hide them, so I choose to have compassion for them and seek to speak and respond only to the spirit inside them, not their ego.

EVERY EGO IS ALWAYS DOING THE BEST IS WAS TAUGHT TO DO. IT IS NEVER PERSONAL.

Pro Bono (Free) Life Coaching

2009-06-10T01:20:00.000-07:00

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Unimagined, Enjoy life!

2009-05-25T03:25:00.000-07:00

All I can say is I am very impressed, we never know what life is going to hand us.

Dreams come true everyday. Honestly its more important to be ready for them.

We think we want certain things and when they come our way, most of us would have no idea how to receive it or accept it. Myself included. Bigger things than I could of desired are falling into my lap and I have no idea how to deal with that. <- Imagine that!

I have no idea what the future has in store for me, NONE. I am scared, excited, anxious and most of all impressed.

I can say, "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON."

One day little by little it just all starts making sense. Just know that everything you are doing today and I mean everything, has a purpose for the future. Its all tied together.

We never know what those things are. We just never know.

Stop Worrying, Start living.

Quick Reality Check:

People you love are going to die, you will lose things you love and are attached to. Kids will grow up and have their own lives. Friends will move away. Jobs will be lost. People will fall in love. Babies (miracles) will be born. Businesses will be created. Things will come along in your life that you never knew possible. Opportunities will come out of the sky. Life will never be what you plan it to be, so stop planning!

And start enjoying!

Right now my life is SOOOOO unpredictable. Everything is coming together, yet it all was ripped apart. How can that be, but trust me, it is!!!!!!!!!!!! It could of never happened the way I imagined the way I desired, nor would I have wanted it to. I wouldn't trade this in and I couldn't of imagined my life as it is now, EVER.

"The course of life is unpredictable. No one can write their autobiography in advance."

- Abraham J Heschel

My new life coaching website.

2009-05-22T18:40:00.000-07:00

Well after months of trying to get this together, I have a draft of my site up. It is not fully functional but it is progress.

I am excited to watch this evolve. I did it myself and I had no knowledge of graphic design or web design. So it is definitely something!

www.straightforwardlifecoach.com

I am open to all feedback and suggestions.

Love and Light,

Tiffany

Planning and Living

2009-05-16T03:10:00.000-07:00

Nice concept, right?

Recently my life and my future has been ripped out from the roots or so I thought.

No matter how much, "It's for the best.", or that I even did it (or did I), Letting go of comfort and of the known is a scary freakin feeling.

Before me lies a blank piece of paper and I get to write my future on it. As much as we all think we want it (be careful what you ask for), when you have it, it can be.... very scary to say the least.

No matter how much planning I have done, no matter how much work, manifesting, asking, praying, controling, wishing, intending, begging, bargaining, pushing, pulling, and forcing I have done, my life is nothing like I antipated. Today is nothing like I thought it would be, Not even from a year ago and certaintly not what I was planning for five years ago. Not one thing in my life is as I thought, wanted, planned, or wished for five years ago. Nor do I have the same desires for it to be so.

So why do we push so hard for what we THINK we want in our future. Because I guarantee it won't happen that and way, and more importantly when the future arrives you won't want what you did now.

Now lay before me, a blank piece of paper. This is freedom, I have before me freedom, real freedom and yet I don't know what to do with it. Its scary, its new, its unpredictable.

When most of us obtain the freedom we seek, we look back and wish we still had out ties. Because being free is scary, the future unknown. So we create more ties out of fear, we actually want to be tied down. As much as fight against it, we want nothing more than to have it even if its unpleasant ones because at least we can see tomorrow. But that is all false because no matter how many ties, attachments, creations you have today, I guarantee they will not be what you think they will be in a year let alone five.

Shall I start marking my piece of paper? Shall I start giving it a direction, that will make me feel secure, that will make me feel like I know. But I don't.... No matter what color I put on that paper, it will change into another, no matter how hard I try to keep it that color. Change is inevitable. So instead of trying to force color on my blank piece of paper, out of fear out of needing some familarity why not allow the paper to stay blank. Let it color itself in the moment.

I look back at all the ways I contained myself over the years in order to obtain what I thought I wanted. Did you know I no longer want that, I want beyond it. I suppressed my desires, my expressions, my mistakes only in hopes of creating the perfect future that I had painted in my mind.

I guess what I am saying is I made decisions, said things and done things according to what I thought I wanted in the future. Except that future never came, that idea of what I wanted doesn't exist anymore. Now all those actions where taken in order to create something today where there is no longer a desire for it be created.

Can you guys understand this? Do you guys understand how significant this is? Next time someone tells you to act rationally, say f*ck it. Life is not predictable. Sure play it safe. Stay in a job you hate, because you don't have the time to pursue your true desire, and risk never waking up with a smile on your face excited to go to work. Stay with a man that is there, because you are scared you won't find anything better and are scared to be alone, why he isn't that bad anyways, and risk never living your life with the person who makes you feel loved and you have passion with every minute of the day. Tell your kids to be quiet, mold them into perfect well behaved children, because you might look like a bad parent as they burst out screaming with laughter and play in an innappropriate place, and risk suppressing your children from who they truly are and creating a life of pain and misery. Don't ask that person out, they might say no, and risk them being the ONE who dramatically changes your life.

"Live boldly." So much easier said than done. Or hell do what I did, ask the source for freedom, ask the source to truly live your life with joy and excitement everyday and trust me you will be given nothing more than opportunities to truly be free, you will have no other choice.

Go ahead play it safe. I know I sure have. And when your on your death bed remember how many minutes you lived planning for a future that never came.

Here is your chance, your chance to truly live. Because I promise you,

TOMORROW WILL NOT CONSIST OF WHAT YOU ARE PLANNING IT TO BE.

Think about today, how many things happened today that you had no clue and you couldn't have predicted would happen.

I knew I would take my son to school today, I knew I would go to work. I didn't know what song was going to play on the radio and set my mood for the day. I didn't know each and every person that was going to walk into my work. I had no idea that my friend was going to say the things she said to me. I had no idea the interactions I was going to have, the emails I was going to receive, the phone calls I was going to get, the news I was going to get. Are we seriously going to spend our day tomorrow planning for the next day when 99% of what we plan for is not going to happen?

This is scary, this is exciting, this is freeing, and this is eye opening.

I am scared sh*tless. It's time to wake up and start living, at least for me it is. And to be honest right now I have no other choice. I have a BLANK piece of paper.

Take risks, stop playing it safe, stop being cautious. Start speaking the truth, living the truth and f*ck anyone who doesn't like it (thats said with love).

IT'S TIME TO LIVE!!!!!!!!!!

Boy what a huge statement to live up to. I better be careful, the universe is listening.

I could throw myself a pity party, my life is taking a huge gigantic turn, get mad. It didn't turn out the way I planned it to. But do I really want it to? Or I can get excited about what this means, it means growth, it means new adventures, it means I get to be surprised.

I have always wanted to have profound pleasant surprises in my life. You know those wonderful things that happen to you that you could never imagine happening to you and they are so amazing.

I guess my point is, NOW I have no other option other than to face the fact that I don't know what tomorrow holds for me. But in this lesson I have learned, we NEVER know what tomorrow holds for us, we only think we do.

Contact and Life Coach Info

2009-05-08T22:26:00.000-07:00

Here is my contact information:

Gmail : LoveGrowth@gmail.com

Twitter : Tiffylove

Facebook : LoveGrowth

I am more grateful than ever before. I am so grateful to be the person I am and to actually be able to be excited about life. I want nothing more than to help other people get to this place as well.

I have a very unique style as a life coach, I like to say "I will tell you what your best friend is aching to tell you about your life but is too scared to." You may not always like me but I have a no bull shit, direct approach. I want to get down to business, I am compassionate but I am not the person that will baby anyone. I want you to be empowered, I would never ever enable a victim mentality, whether you like it or not. We all have room for improvement and if you open to it and yearning for more joy, excitement, happiness, whatever it may be, TRUST me it is not far from your reach.

Los Angeles Life coach:

I would love the pleasure of meeting everyone in person but I feel I am being called beyond the boundaries of just the LA area now.

So, I am currently in the midst of building a website that will allow me to expand to anyone and everyone who I can touch. However please do not hesitate to contact me at my gmail address if you have any questions about me or a life coach prior to the site being finished.

Life Coaching or even Spiritual Coaching is my specialty. Years ago I never ever in my wildest dreams thought I would be in this place to help others so drastically. I never thought I could live with such peace in my life and knowing how poweful I am and we all are.

Life is truly amazing.

I will also be taking on the journey of writing a book. The process has already been a blessing, I truly believe we all have a messenge and several books inside each and everyone one of us.

Believe in yourself and if you don't, make it a priority to get to a place where you do believe in yourself.

It's time to enjoy your life.

Whether or not it is time to start my own book?

2009-04-29T08:49:00.001-07:00

I have recently manifested a book writing opportunity that seems to be very aligned with who I am. Since I have been exposed to this opporunity I have been attracting many things that seem to point to it being time to for me to write a book.

I have some concerns and am not sure if it is my ego trying to take me out or if I am being realistic.

I have yet to even finish my website. And my website should take priority and then it could be time to start my first book after it is finished.

Also the finances to begin the with this opportunity is not A LOT but it is still some and at this time it just doesn't seem "smart".

I am also in the middle the quarter with school. As of yet this quarter has not been very demanding on me but I would like to make sure I can somewhat keep it that way.

I also want to be able to give it(publishing a book) the proper amount of attention/focus and right now I have so many things going on. Although it does seem as if it aligned with where I am at now and where I am headed.

I know that no one can answer this question for myself but me, I am just voicing my thoughts in hope of some clarity.

hmmm, is it time?

A huge part of me feels compelled to begin this journey, I just don't want this to become another project and another thing I add to my plate that is not getting the proper attention that is needed.

I would be self-publishing so the entire process would be up to me, which in some ways may not be such a good thing when I have a full plate already, it may just get lost.

Also lately I have become extremely aware of my tendencies to loose myself in the internet. It is never anything "unimportant", I am always researching and gathering information about this or that. However it is not productive, the time could be used for finishing my website or other things needing my attention. Yet at the time, these adventures of information seem to be important and never seem like they will consume as much time as they do.

If I could break myself of this habit/pattern, It would be VERY possible for me to take on the both projects of my website and writing my first book.

Love and Light,

Tiffany

Who I really AM!

2009-04-26T13:40:00.000-07:00

For the first time I finally experienced what I have known and believed for a while.

I have been on a spiritual path for years now and have educated myself quite well on the subjects of god, human existance, human behavior, sciences, and myself.

If you know me well you have heard me say "We are all one", "Everything happens for a reason", "Everything is Energy", "Where your mind goes energy flows", "We create our reality", etc....

I understood the concepts very well, I even looked to science to back it all up. I embarked on a journey seeking to be the best person I could be and to grow and improve myself as much as possible.

I had heard the concepts that we are whole and complete the way we are, and the answers are within not outside of us and I accepted them but some things can't be fully understood or percieved until you have felt them and experienced them.

Its like reading every book there is on swimming, but never getting in the water. You can explain how the body stays afloat, you can explain the science of the water moving and how it all works. But you don't REALLY know how to swim until you get into the water and SWIM.

I have finally come home. Home to who I am. I do not need to seek ANYTHING. I only need to live from that place inside me that is God/spirit/Love, whatever word can be attached to it.

To truly live in the present moment is to BE LOVE. To know this and to experience it is two COMPLETELY different things.

My life took a turn when I was blessed with this experience.

I again feel inclined to seek. But rather than seeking for answers, I am looking for ways to truly live what I have experienced. I felt who I really am, who we are really are, now living from that place on day to day basis when my life has momemtum and my ego has its roots is going to take some practice.

However its all coming from a different place within me now. I wish I had the words to describe it. Maybe I will. I intend to, as I understand this more and go deeper into it my intentions are to learn how to teach it so others may experience the joy of who they really are.

Immediately after my experience, I operated from such a place of peace where I forgot about myself. I was not disconnected from anyone or anything. I was present in every moment. If you asked me what I wanted to eat in 20 minutes, I didn't know, my immediate reaction was "I'll tell you when I feel hungry." It was beautiful.

I know what I am capable of now, I have felt exactly the way I want to live my entire life. It is so liberating, I had no desires, the moment was PERFECT and everything was so blissful. This lasted for days.

However the knowing that I am whole and complete, that happiness and bliss can be felt no matter what and knowing I am more than I ever imagined, has not left me. It is no longer a "good" concept, it is my truth.

Now living that for the rest of my life and helping others do the same is my intention.

I do not regret seeking outside myself for that is what brought me to the truth.

In summary my only intention is to live in the moment from the love that IS. My quest has taken a significant turn and to most it may not look different but it sure the heck feels different.

For those on a spiritual path I sincerely would love to connect with you. My skype is LOVEGROWTH and my email is LoveGrowth@gmail.com

And for those seeking guidance you may contact me as well.

Drama of life

2009-01-16T00:14:00.000-08:00

It's moments like these that I look to dramatically increase. When I stop to "Smell the roses" to count my blessings. Yet it can never be on demand. I cannot demand such pure feelings as so many try to teach.

As days go by I get more and more clear about the meaning of being in the drama of life. As I wake worrying about the list of todo's and the must have's of the day, the expectation of a lover, the chores of caring for child, the person in my way to get where I am going, the money being spent, the class I must attend, the work I must perform, etc.

OR

To think how today is brighter than yesterday.
How I have more knowledge than before.
My mind is clearer and I am happier than ever
And I am definitely stronger than I have ever been.
Not to mention....
I couldn't have asked for a better lover or could have imagined how close and strong we would be.
Or the beautiful relationship I have with my son and how its evolving
The new found confidence and love for myself
The wonderful opportunities all coming my way
And How excited I am about my future and MY LIFE.

I guess we all have a choice of how we look at our lives, the task of getting through it or the beauty flowing from it.

I couldn't ask for better people in my life. It's time to remember how blessed I am, even in the midst of my todo's.

Isn't that what its ultimately about anyways, we will always have todo's but never again will we have today.

A lesson I am sure I will rediscover over and over again.

I intend to remember these blessings instead of getting caught up in the drama of daily activities. This awareness in it self is a blessing and I am sure will continue to evolve. I have noticed that it is not something you can just tell someone to do, it must be experienced and felt, but I believe it could be taught.

Unfolding of Life

2009-01-15T09:10:00.000-08:00

To expect magnificent but not know how you got there. To know it will get even better and know you couldn't dream up what the universe will produce is scary, exciting, illuminating, and anxious.

How do you explain a feeling of faith yet fear. A feeling of great but not quite there. It's like smelling the cookies bake, knowing they are there but also knowing it is not time to eat them just yet. When will they be ready? It could be five maybe ten..... Who knows, but THEY ARE MINE(I made them and now I can smell them)!

The flowers are blooming and they will be beautiful but OH what colors will they be?

Love and Light, Tiffany

How to live from the heart and be more passionate!

2008-11-19T15:06:00.000-08:00

Well I wish at this point I could offer some straight forward solutions, but as I continue to seek this the only thing I can offer is what I have learned and how I plan to continue learning it.

Once I realized my biggest issue was opening my heart and living with passion, I thought the solution would be easy.

Just open your heart, right?

Just live with passion, right?

Not so easy, well at least for me! It hasn't been easy but that in no way has stopped my determination to completely live from love and with passion.

Ask you and you shall receive. It may not come today but I am a living example that it will come. Master your Mind, Master your life and do this with the healing power and healing touch of LOVE!

Well I asked and I received.

First, all my work with Peak Potentials has definitely had an impact on this area in my life. My first event with them, I was one of the people sitting in the chairs, extremely uncomfortable, and not talking to many people. The most recent event I was up and completely engaged the majority of the time, meeting lots of wonderful people. This is due to their style of teaching which is very transformative.

But it all definitely started drastically changing for me after Enlightened Warrior Camp. I went through some major challenges afterwards, that I would have never been able to get through without the inner strength that Warrior really showed me had.

I felt a huge expanse in myself and my love. I gave my mother a hug that was years over due, etc.. So the love part was getting easy, but the passion, well..........

Lets just say I definitely feel it! I am a very passionate person especially when it comes to things revolving myself (example being my growth, personal development, progressive, determined to reach my dreams, etc..)I just don't express any passion I do have towards others, which is a lot(but no ones knows it). In that area I still have a major block.

My boyfriend of three years who is the most non-expressive person I know has been able to look me in the eyes and tell me he loves me with every fiber of his being I was able to feel it and see it.

AND I STILL CAN'T DO THAT!!!!!!!!! It feels weird.

Yet, I see people live this way every single day!

But there is hope!!! And I am going to offer you as much as I can.

First there is a seminar that is geared towards this, which I have not gone yet so I have no reviews of it but after hearing the guy speak and his knowledge and the way he lives and expresses himself (So passionately but a very manly passion, its very attractive), I can say that I know this camp will change a lot of things for me, but what?... We'll just have to wait and see.

First I will offer you the information to his website and camp and then I will try to help immediately with the things I have learned so far.

Here is the main page: Warrior Sage. The camp I believe will be the most beneficial is the "Sex, Passion, and Enlightenment" Camp.

If anyone has already been, please share your experience with me.

Here are some things I have learned, that might help:

First becoming consciously aware of what part of you are you living from at all times, are your thoughts and actions coming from your head or your heart.
Another way of saying this is, "Do you have a fear based perception or a love based perception any given moment?"

I have an alert go off on my phone three times a day that asks me "What your you feeling? What are your thoughts?" This helps tremediously, first it puts me in check of whether I am in fear or love, and then it also helps with keeping my conscious thoughts very powerful (because I am working on retraining my subconscious mind)

Like I have mentioned before you can not be experiencing both fear and love, so in everything you do, you are doing it out of love or fear.

There is a great exercise to help expand your heart, which I also mentioned in my other blogs. Spend five minutes in the morning meditating on sending love to everyone. The secret is sending love, not only to people you love but people who you have difficulties with. The more anger or pain you feel for them, the more healing it is to be able to send them love. Start out where you are comfortable.

Another exercise is to pick one person who has hurt you. Take some time and journal about your experience of the pain, how they hurt you, what you would like to say to them, express EVERYTHING. Then after you have fully allowed your self to experience that, then you go through the experience but from their point of view. Why would they do that, was it them being malicious, were they doing the best they knew how, were they hurt and reacting to it, etc....

Now if you can and only if you can, forgive them and write what you forgive them for. It could be everything or it could be for only parts of it.

This is only for you and you do not ever have to let the other person know.

Remember when you hold on to pain some how we think we are punishing the other person but the only person who is hurting from you holding onto it, is you! Do yourself a favor and work at forgiving those that hurt you.

Even if it takes you hundreds of exercises to do so, it is worth it!

The funny thing that does start happening as you open your heart is you start seeing people differently. You see them clearly and for who they truly are. It's actually quite interesting.

The more you clear your "head" of pain, the clearer it is to see!

One thing I have definitely learned is that its a journey, you can't just pick up a book and now your transformed. But that book may give you one concept that leads you to the next and the next. Seminars and workshops do the same, they are more intense and are also quicker than a book, but it will heal and open up one part of you which will lead you to the next. You will always get out of a seminar, book, exercise, what you need to get it out of it. Its a journey but its a very beautiful experience!

"Life is Change, Growth is Optional, Choose Wisely!"

I will be sure to speak about my experience about the "Sex, Passion, and Enlightenment" Camp. For those who are considering that seminar, I will be attending the February dates in Los Angeles, and would love to share that experience with some of you!

Namaste,
Tiffany

Marianne Williamson Experience and her teachings with A Course in Miracles.

2008-11-18T14:47:00.000-08:00

Marianne Williamson teaches from A Course In Miracles.

I was blessed with opportunity to see Marianne Williamson speak, again. She is one of the most passionate speakers I have experienced. She has a light and feel about her that is unexplainable. She lives every moment of her life trying to make a difference.

The course in miracles in a book that teaches love, you can also get Journey through the Workbook of A Course in Miracles
, which is what I recommend, and it has exercises to help you live from a place of love. The healing power of love is unmatchable.

This is what I got from her!

That I am divine glory. We are all divine glory. We are all spiritual energy.

I have the choice of where to live from love or fear. You are always living from one, either love or fear, NEVER BOTH.

The magic is choosing not to give your consciousness over to a fear based perception and letting your mind get mesmerized by your environment (which is unarguable mostly negative information). Remember the power of your mind?

"As the perceiver changes, the perceived is changed."

If you believe you are only a material being then your experience is subjected and only to all the material laws.
If you believe you are only a spiritual being, you live and are subjected to spiritual laws.

Marianne said "If we just spend five minutes a day in the morning meditating on sending love for others and honoring the love/spirit in them, in all people, those we like and those we don't like. Each and everyday we do this our days will unfold in an entirely different way."

Ultimately its learning to live from your heart instead of your head(conditioned mind) and Marianne teaches this through the course of miracles and through love.

I highly recommend her work.

You can see all her books on amazon here: Marianne Williamson

Namaste,
Tiffany

"Awareness and love is my religion."

Can you really use Subconscious Mind Power? How does it work?

2008-11-12T23:03:00.000-08:00

"Subconscious Mind Power"

Too good to be true?

I am currently in the middle of a four week home study course by John Kehoe, called "Mind Power". The power of the mind or better the power of the subconscious mind is a passion of mine. I must say I have studied the mind a lot, actually the mind is absolutely intringing to me, it amazes me and I love to learn about it. So when I was introduced to John Kehoe's program, I thought it might just be more of what I already know.

But to make a long story short, T. Harv Eker highly recommended it and I seen John Kehoe himself, eating where I was having lunch one day so I figured the universe was trying to tell me something and thought I would give it a whirl.

And I must tell everyone, this program (If followed and practiced) is absolutely life
changing. I have been in the process of the "Mind Power" program for about two and half weeks now and I am already seeing my world very differently and things are already starting to happen. IT HAS ONLY BEEN TWO WEEKS.

The power of the mind is absolutely incredible. And actually it is the power of your Subconscious mind that has all the magic.

This is my chance to master life! Your subconscious mind power can change your life and it is changing mine.

Here is the book:

Or you can visit his site Learn Mind Power .

I truly believe in this guys expertise and process.

Due to this process I am becoming extremely aware of my thoughts, almost naturally. I am also becoming cautious about what I "feed" my brain. So instead of listening to my regular music preference I decided to listen to some music that would be good for my thoughts and plant positive subconscious "seeds". So I have been listening to a CD that is really starting to trigger my thoughts.

I wake up in the morning with these lyrics in my head. It made me think, if these songs are having that much of an affect on me in just two weeks of listening to it while I am driving in my car, how much of an affect does everything else I listen to and watch have on me.

Anyway, I find myself singing the lyrics which is pretty powerful especially if you are familiar with the power of the subconscious and conscious mind or John Kehoe's work. But the best part is looking into the back seat of my car and my son is singing "I'm getting rich, doing what I love. I'm a money magnet, money, money, money's coming to me!"

It doesn't get any better than that. So I would like to recommend this CD. I also highly highly recommend it.

Hear life from a higher vibration

I must say there is something to sound healing, this CD has turned me on to educate myself and experience sound healing, I will report my findings.

Everything is energy, we can heal through music, light, love, etc.. Master your Mind, Master your Life!

Namaste,
Tiffany

I joined linkedin, you can visit me there: Tiffany Godinez

My two cents about complaining and drama!

2008-08-28T00:09:00.000-07:00

Complaining and Drama go hand and hand.

When you complain you are caught up the drama and emotion of something. Instead take a step back and observing the event, even if it is oneself, this removes the "drama" of any situation. You can not play the "victim" role (which is complaining) with out "drama".

Observing one's own reaction creates compassion for others. However coming from a previous state of mind when I used to allow myself to experience the "drama" (emotion) of the situation, into a place of observance and awareness creates a different type of compassion ( in which creates some "drama" on another level.)

I am not however free from this experience myself, although my awareness is expansive, I am human and still find myself "pulled" (victim word) into the emotion of experiences.

The ability to step back and watch the emotion unfold and to observe your own reactions, is a life practice.

Complaining is a sure sign to know you or someone else is coming from the "victim" mentality and wrapped up in all the "drama" of it.

It is impossible to take full responsibility for your own life and manifestation and still complain. It is impossible to observe a situation and still feel emotion, because it is our judgments of a situation that create emotion. You can not judge something and just observe it at the same time.

Nevertheless, Emotion is a human attribute meaning you can not fully escape it, it is what we are here for, but does it have control over you, or do you control it?

Ultimately the concepts can be understood in an instant but can take a lifetime to experience fully.

I remain a student.

:o)

Lots of love,
Tiffany

P.S. Today I had a "Tiffy" moment where I became anxious about something, I did not stop myself reacting with emotion however I did observe my reaction, which immediately gave it a different "look". I definitely responded to the situation much differently because of this. I also find that in difficult times, I now prefer to call companions that will not add to the "drama" of the situation but will act as a "rock", when needed. Life will continue to throw curve balls, the outcomes of them however rest solely in our own hands.

(This was my thoughts after reading an article by DialyOm)

The Power of Positive Thinking and Daily Affirmations

2008-08-09T22:54:00.000-07:00

Have you noticed that people are already starting to get a sour face when you mention positive thinking?

How did it acquire such a bad reputation so quickly?

My question would be: Has the people that are turning their heads the other way, tried affirmations or positive thinking?

And, Do you think the same person that rolls their eyes at the idea of "positive thinking" is the same person who truly tried "thinking positively"?

Here is what I say.

I challenge anyone to commit to producing you own present powerful affirmations, listen to the them daily, write them daily and think only mostly positive thoughts and see how your perspective of life and your experience of it changes.

You can read some of my other posts, "What are affirmations and why do they work?" and "5 simple ways to make your own powerful affirmations".

Here is the dilemma. It takes practice and retraining of the mind to think positively. It doesn't happen over night.

If you can tell me how to change every single thought I have into a positive wonderful thought over night, tell me how, and I will owe you a fortune.

Until then, training the mind to think positively through affirmations is one of the best ways I have found to truly impact the quality of life.

Hypnotherapy is another way that works but requires some investment as affirmations do not.

The bottom line is that, you have to remove your negative beliefs and not only think positively but in order to "live" authentically positive and attract preferable circumstances to you, you must have and create BELIEFS that are positively aligned with what you want.

If you can reprogram your mind to have positive beliefs about yourself and your life, I personally guarantee it will dramatically change your experiences in life.

Unfortunately there is no over night fix, it takes time and dedication to do this.

But its exciting, and as you start to release negative beliefs and adapt more positive powerful ones you will feel your life changing and beautiful shifts within your perception.

I am personally addicted to reprogramming my beliefs and subconscious mind, the process is inexpressible.

You should try it sometime. ;o)

Namaste,

Tiffany

What are affirmations and why do they work?

2008-08-01T14:37:00.000-07:00

I am not a scientist or doctor but I will describe what affirmations are to me!

Take it or leave it.

Through out the years of focusing on personal growth and development, it became evident that no matter how much you worked on some "issues" and how much you focused on it them, you always seem to fall back into old habits.

I know I sure do. And it can be frustrating and confusing.

But why does this happen?

From everything I have studied and experienced here is a short version of what I have learned.

Our minds are built on everything experienced in the past. Our upbringing, childhood, and all other past experiences have built certain beliefs that we operate from daily.
Some of these beliefs can hinder or even prevent us from obtaining things we want today.

Without going into a long drawn out explanation. If you believe you were meant to be fat, or you don't deserve a good partner or life is always hard for you this is what will be true for you.

This is what you will experience, this is what your mind searches for and looks for.

AND IT WILL FIND ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING THAT SUPPORTS THAT BELIEF.

No matter how hard you work at changing your habits or patterns you must change the belief that causes those habits and patterns.

Affirmations can be one way to do that! Yes, this is just one tool you can utilize to transform your beliefs. But it is one of the most powerful tools I have come across.

If you have a belief that life will always be hard. Create a positive affirmation to counter that negative or limiting belief. Such as "Good things come easy to me" "Good things always happen to me", "I love my life", etc...

Think of it as weeds and flowers. Your positive beliefs are flowers and your negative beliefs are weeds. Water (your thoughts, writing, affirmations, etc.) the flowers, not the weeds.

Every time you repeat a positive present affirmation, you care fertilizing that flower.

Here is the problem, every time you think, write, say, anything negative, you are watering that weed!!!!!!

"Watering" the flower makes it stronger!
As the flower becomes stronger than the weed, what info/experiences do you think your mind is looking for and supporting?

So what do you think you will start experiencing?

As you start to change your perception the "weed" will slowly wither away, it will gradually have less and less "water" to keep it alive and will eventually die.

This can be a slow process depending on how deeply ingrained the negative beliefs are. Although some limiting beliefs could be changed rather quickly.

However if you think of every thought, every action of either watering a "weed" or a "flower" you will see change immediately.

And why would you want to spend one more second "watering" a "weed" that makes you feel bad?

Every single time you say, write, or think positive powerful affirmations you are planting "seeds" of empowerment in that area of your life.

Pretty soon those affirmations become automatic beliefs which you will eventually truly believe about yourself and your life.

And remember
"Whatever you believe, is true for you"
"Your thoughts create your reality"

How many years have you spent watering those "weeds" and most of the time automatically?

I think its time to plant some flower then water them, because you deserve to be happy!

Leaving you with this:
"Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny."
- Unknown

MySpace.com - View Comments

2008-07-23T21:40:00.001-07:00

I just thought this was beautiful!

Present Awareness

2008-07-23T02:29:00.000-07:00

Upcoming Birthday(July 28th) and stuff!

I usually get a little weirded out when my birthday is approaching.

Just a couple years back it came in form of depression.

Last year it was in the form of anxiety and questioning myself and what I wanted out of life.

This time, its much different. If this is even birthday related.
Recently I have been very deep (as if thats anything new) but even more. My consciousness is expanding and my awareness of my myself and others has increased dramatically.
I can see when I get wrapped up in the drama of the human mind now, but I am still not to the point where I am able to completely control it though!

I have just been absolutely loving life lately and sometimes I think my thoughts don't know what to do about that!

I am realizing that when I am not feeling my best, I have a tendency to blame it on something outside of me..(e.g. I don't care for my job, my boyfriend and I haven't had a lot of "us" time lately, this didn't work out, that didn't work out, etc...)

But living the truth that I live, I know all too well it all comes from within. It has absolutely nothing to do with anything outside of me.

I am not a victim, I am a creator.

Now finding the beliefs and behaviors that are keeping me in my current place of employment and my current place in any other area I am "stuck" in, is the challenge.

Or maybe the ultimate challenge is just learning to enjoy every second in the now and not worry about anything else!

Not sure but what I do know is I am about to enjoy the rest of my night, if I can settle the "demands" of the mind.

;o)

Namaste,
Tiffany

I went way off subject here but I just needed to "empty my basket". :o)

Believe In Yourself

2008-07-09T02:26:00.001-07:00

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Thank you!

Who would of thought?

2008-07-09T02:06:00.000-07:00

I have reached what was once thought of being untouchable for myself.

To know I will reach the unbelievable still.

The secret being, turning the disbelief into belief.

If anyone can reach the top I will.

Massive dreams, huge ambition, dedication.

Time to learn to enjoy the journey and bask in the gratitude for which I am today.

Who would of ever thought Tiffany would be who she is today?

Not I. Not much to you but a different world to me.

Enjoy it said "I", but the mind demands more.

The ultimate goal, settle the ego, live from the heart and know I am spirit.

More lessons, more laughter, more love!

Until then An imperfect person who is learning the only true perfection(love).

Namaste,
Tiffany

5 simple ways to make powerful affirmations that work

2008-06-30T15:05:00.000-07:00

After working with affirmations myself for several weeks now I can tell you that they can be very powerful.

Remember every thought you have and thing you say you are affirming something to yourself.

Now lets make some powerful changes in your life, you are affirming things every second of the day as you think. Why not make sure those thoughts are helping you instead of hindering you!

Let's get started!

Here are 5 ways to have a powerful start with affirmations.

1) Write them in present tense.
- This one is very tricky. I suggest you write them all out and then have someone check them for you. I had created a list of about 100 affirmations and I double checked them. I then had someone else check them and they found several affirmations that were still not in the present tense! This is very crucial, you want to STATE THEM AS IF THEY ARE ALREADY TRUE!
Example - I will lose weight! or I will no longer eat unhealthy (WRONG)
I am losing weight! (OK)
I am at my perfect weight! or I enjoy eating healthy food! (PERFECT)

2) Write them with "feeling: words.
Anything that invokes emotion or passion when you state it or hear it will work that much better.
Example - I bought my own home (NON EMOTIONAL)
I enjoy living in my new home. I love my new home, it's beautiful! (EMOTIONAL)

3) Focus mainly on changes about yourself or perception
Example - Instead of saying something like "My house is organized" say " I am an organized person". Focus on you and your perception not your environment. If you would like to find a different job. Do not say " I found a new job." Say "I am making money doing something I love." or "I enjoy my job, my job is fulfilling and rewarding."

4) Record them in your own voice and listen to it daily
If you don't want to hear your own voice yet, there is plenty of software that allows you to enter text and they will create it for you. However it is much cheaper (could cost you nothing) to do it in your own voice. You can just make a short 5 minute recording at first and listen to it on your way to work.

Later you might want to record affirmations for different situations. I have different tracks, one for work (which I listen to before work), one for my relationships (which I try to listen to before I spend time with my boyfriend or even a lot of time with family), one for when I am on my way to the gym or I am hungry and craving fried food when I know I want to be eating something healthy, etc..

You can play with this but start out slow, don't overwhelm yourself or you might not end up doing anything at all!

5) Pick one main affirmation and write it everyday for 21 days.
This might seem small at first but it will make a huge difference. I will give you the first one I used. "I love my life". That affirmation has so much emotion behind it, it is very quick to write and say but is also very very powerful.

Write it 10 times a day for 21 days. Remember it takes 21 days to create a habit. You are not creating the habit of writing it, but the habit of your subconscious mind thinking it. That is our ultimate goal.

Remember don't worry too much about the details, I will show you ways to fine tune them later.

And remember as soon as you hear yourself thinking negative things, repeat one or two of your affirmations to yourself (doesn't have to be out loud). You want to affirm the good things and cancel out the negative things you think or say.

Just thinking the affirmations will change the way you see life.

Also you can leave a comment or message me if you have any specific questions.

"What we think, We become" - Buddha

Thirty day Challenge

2008-06-30T02:31:00.000-07:00

I had posted a few weeks ago about the free thirty day challenge with Ed Dale and I wanted to give an update on that. Thirty Day Challenge

So far we are still in pre-season. We have had 6 lessons in pre-season and I am on the fifth one!

YAY, for me!

Ed Dale just introduced twitter and Twhirl. If you have twitter already you can reach me @Tiffylove

Here is one link to a video of Ed Dale's showing how to sign up for twitter, which is actually self explanatory at Twitter.com but if you would like to see a video on it Click Here.

The best way I can describe it so far with almost no knowledge of using it yet, is it appears and is used almost like an instant messaging system at first. However your posts are picked up by google, they can also be used like email and is like using an social networking site all in one, plus much more (this is my experience with it through Twhirl).

It has major advantages in internet marketing.

Once again if you sign up, you can add me @tiffylove

I would love to hear your opinion of twitter, however Twhirl just makes twitter a million times better. You can download twhirl at twhirl.org. First you want to create a twitter account.

Before I start posting more about the thirty day challenge and everything I will be learning I would like to post a few blogs on affirmations.

Affirmations have become a very big part of my life, I have a book I highly recommend plus some tips and techniques.

I will try to get that posted within the next few days.

Until next time.

Namaste,
Tiffany

How is my life still so busy?

2008-06-18T02:01:00.000-07:00

No complaints here though.

Things have been great. I think I am barely catching up on sleep, plus I have been back to my gym routine.

I started my commitment to eating healthier as well, this past Monday.

I have been reading A LOT.

I also have been working on affirmations. I bought some software but it really wasn't for me, I think I mentioned it in another blog.

So I decided on just normal recording software.

I have my list of affirmations, and while writing them I was provided with evidence about how powerful they could be. I highly recommend taking time to do affirmations.

Through the process, I have learned quite a few techniques that will really have an impact if your interested in using affirmations.

Those posts to come.

Another new event, I bought my boyfriend a new camera for his birthday and decided to buy one for myself as well.

The camera is able to take pictures extremely close to the subject which has caused me to take a deeper look at things lately.

Kind of funny how things work, there are some pictures on my myspace page.

Namaste,
Tiffany

Affirmations in my life.

2008-06-08T14:53:00.000-07:00

Believe it or not with all the work I have done and even with my beliefs I have never taken the time to do affirmations.

I believed them to be over rated.

Funny thing is we all do affirmations everyday.

Anything we tell ourselves over and over again, we are affirming..

(i.e. I am fat, I hate my job, I hate driving, I don't want to get up, I am never going to get.....(fill in the blank), nothing good ever happens to me, or what about this famous one: Just my luck......., and many many more!)

These things are getting affirmed every time we even think them.

I finally realized that it might be a good idea to counter react them with good affirmations!

Most will say "Duh" Tiffany.. But it took a while for me to see how crucial this is.

It is not simply a tool, its 100% necessary because we already do it.

I also am well aware of the fact that there are certain affirmations that work better than others as well as ways of doing them.

I know emotion behind an affirmation is like adding fuel to the fire. And visuals help enhance them as well.

If anyone has any useful information on affirmations or any suggestions, I am open ears.

The last few days I have spend countless hours researching software to help with this process. I am not just talking software that will tell you affirmations but much more.

Recording in your own voice, visuals, subliminal recording, masking, flashes of your computer, being able to add your own affirmations, etc...

I have finally decided on one but have just started playing with it today. The one I choose is one that is not very commercialized some how I feel when they are, its because they have some high commissions associated with it, so everyone promotes it.
Doesn't mean it is the best.

The one I chose that is not highly commercialized is called Dream manifesto.

I have a check list of what all of the different software has and I hope to get around to posting it here for everyone to make their own decision soon.

Update 6/18/08: After using Dream manifesto I decided it wasn't for me. I do however have to commend the integrity of the company. When I requested a refund as they offer, he first asked if he could help me in anyway. When I replied no, that the software was simply not what I was looking for, I received a notice of a refund within minutes. He still proceeded to write me and offer advice and help.
The only reason I say the software wasn't for me is because I wanted to make cd's of the affirmations and this software was more of a computer program. However the program is highly recommended by me if you are looking for something more along the lines of a computer program, with visuals, etc...

Much Love,
Tiffany

Thirty day Internet Marketing Challenge 2008

2008-06-04T19:23:00.000-07:00

As you all know I have been actively seeking to learn and "master" internet marketing.

I have purchased several systems.

Read several books.

Spent hours and hours online seeking this special knowledge.

I came across something that I think is truly amazing. Ed Dale is doing his fourth year of ThirtyDayChallenge and the amazing thing about this is it is 100% free.

ENTIRELY

He even mentioned that all the tools you will need for this "challenge" will be free as well.

I joined today and already went through the first day of preseason.

Needless to say I have learned of several free tools that I have never heard of that so far, are impressing me.

I am using a new browser recommended by Ed Dale, called Flock.

So far I am impressed with the speed of this browser but it has only been a few hours.

We'll see how it goes!

And oh yeah!!! For the Thirty Day Challenge Ed Dale stresses teams tremendously.

There is a forum within this challenge to form teams and discuss the content.

I really love this aspect. I know I will get a lot further a lot faster with some supportive people by my side.

I have heard quite a few really good things from people who have taken the challenge in past years.

I am excited!

Namaste,
Tiffany

Your Burning Desire!

2008-05-30T01:19:00.000-07:00

I was going over my notes from "Never Work Again" and I came across a paragraph talking about finding your "burning desire".

It explained how to find this and once you have it and become very clear on it, it will guide you with great passion to success.

Ironically enough this came from Greg Habstritt, the guy who gave away his system for just a donation for a animal shelter.

He mentions that you haven't found your burning desire until deep emotion comes up while speaking or writing about it.

The trick is to keep asking yourself "why" until you feel intense emotion.

You will know when you feel it.

I suggest everyone doing this.

It took me 5 why's to get some kind of emotion surrounding it. I plan on fine tunning it and maybe sharing it at a later time.

Just a little update!

2008-05-27T13:12:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

Well I am officially burnt out! But SOOOOO ready to rock!

Combine the Never Work Again Seminar with the Zrii Convention and I am enthralled.

I also have a few internet marketing systems I am getting ready to go through.

I have two weeks left of my fall quarter in school, and I am taking summer off, so I will have three and half months of no school. I also have almost three months where I do not have one event/workshop/seminar scheduled.

Meaning..... I will have lots of time to work on internet marketing and my business or businesses! :o)

I am trying to get my son into blogging too, I think it will be something that will be well worth his time and learning it now will benefit him.

He is way to into video games and tv.

I also signed him up for two weeks of Element Skate Camp, so I am hoping that helps as well.

I plan on putting him in some guitar lessons as well this summer.

I am trying to contribute to his other passions other than the tv.

He absolutely loves music.

You will be hearing a lot from me soon!

Until next time,
Tiffany

Zrii Convention W/ Deepak Chopra

2008-05-25T16:36:00.000-07:00

Well were do I start?

It was amazing. Words would not do it justice. ZRII

I got to spend a lot of time with Heidi, Finally got to meet my business partner and I just had a blast. Time flew by!!!

Hearing Deepak Chopra speak was amazing. There was a mini Chopra Center of Wellbeing, inside the Salt Palace where the convention was held.

The highlight of my day was meeting my team and just spending two days getting to know such awesome people.

I really don't want to reload all my photos on here right now, which i have tons of videos as well but if you are interested you can visit my myspace at Click Here

More to come about the Never Work Again, I do plan on going through each speaker one at a time or maybe two a day. I only have two more weeks of school and then I will be full on dedicated to my blogs and businesses!

Deepak Chopra Speaking at Zrii Convention

Mucho Love,
Tiffany

NEVER WORK AGAIN!!!!!!!!

2008-05-18T22:35:00.000-07:00

I love peak potentials! I can literally see these seminars transforming my life and I am getting more and more excited about my future!

I have to say that I was really wary of this event. I assumed it wasn't going to worth my time and they were just going to offer a bunch of stuff that I had to purchase in order to make some money! I was wrong!!!!

I would say 60% of the "ideas" they offered were things you had to build and yes 30% were things you could purchase to produce income. The other 10% was pure info!

I must say I learned so much from this event, I will never think about money the same! I have completely different expectations for myself and my son!

I will name some of the speakers (which were all very successful people in their particular field.).

Later I will write more in depth about them one by one as I have time! So if you have a favorite one, check back periodically or just let me know who you are interested in.

1. Lora Langemeier - Expert on creating Cash Machines (Passive Income)
2. Kirk Laidlaw - Vending Machines
3. Berny Dohrmann - Networking, Ceo Space! *****
4. Chris Attwood - Enlightened Alliances
5. T. Harv Eker - Book Publishing and Best Seller
6. Ed Mercer - Property in Costa Rica
7. Bonnie Solow - Book Agent
8. Mitch Alexrod - Network Marketing
9. Mark Rothstein - Stocks, Bonds, Finances.
10. Tyrell Gray - Real Estate
11. Kim Gillis - Photography
12. Gary Goldstein - Movies (Producer of "Pretty Woman")
13. Paul Hoffman - Music (Did music for ford)
14. Greg Habstritt - New Paradigms (Animal Lover, AWESOME man)
15. Mark ? - Trust Deed Investing
16. Joel Comm - Internet Marketing (Adsense)
17. Brain Wallace - Laundrymats
18. David Riklan - Internet Marketing (Ebooks)
19. Armand Morin Internet Marketing (Membership Sites)
20. Rand Brenner - Licensing

All I can say is I am SOOOO SOOO SOOO glad I went, and to think I was considering backing out!

It's absolutely amazing the type of people T. Harv Eker chooses to speak at his events. I can truly see that most of them have huge hearts and are such genuine people. Greg habstritt gave us an entire system of ebooks, cd's and more for just a donation of $10 to help an animal shelter in the Dominican Republic, Judy's Pet Lodge. That says a lot to me.

When I write about Greg I will make sure to leave his link so that anyone can donate or just get more info about him. He did not give us anything to contact him or buy stuff from him so I will have to find the link myself.

I am starting to become very sleepy. This weekend was extremely intense, I will write more tomorrow!

Good Night,
Tiffany

The Next Two Weeks!

2008-05-14T14:46:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to say "Hi" to everyone and give a little update.

I have decided to go with SBI for my website hosting.

So I know I set a goal intitially of June but that is not going to happen as you can all tell. I have had and still have several events and between school and work it just became very overwhelming. I should have known that from the beginning but I always tend to think I could take on anything.

I am however only taking one class this summer and do not have any events planned for June or July.

Meaning...... I plan on really working on my site and learning internet marketing those two months.

Tomorrow I will be attending "Never Work Again". It's a seminar that is supposed to teach several different passive income methods. I have heard mixed opinions about this seminar, but I will give my honest opinion after I attend.

Then next thursday I am flying to Salt Lake City, UT for my business convention! Go Zrii! www.livefree2008.com. I finally get to meet my business partner and spend the week with a good friend Heidi.

By the way Zrii just came out in a very popular magazine!

Well that is my mini update! Stick around for some good stuff coming this way!!

:o)

Namaste,
Tiffany

Life or Something Like It

2008-05-11T00:23:00.000-07:00

I just watched a movie with my son called "Life or Something Like it", where Angelina Jolie plays a beautiful woman who has everything she thought she ever wanted but when a psychic tells her she is going to die in a week she starts to question everything in her life.

The whole lesson of the movie is to live everyday as if your last. Be yourself, enjoy everything!

I have been watching quite a bit of movies lately. I seen "Made of Honor" with Heather, it was cute. The lesson is pretty much to appreciate what you have and not to take people in your life for granted.

I saw "What Happens in Vegas" with Albert yesterday. It was a cute movie. A lot of relationship lessons and gender differences.

Today I saw "Speed Racer" with Joel. It was a cute movie as well. A movie about passion and following what you believe is right.

But this movie, "Life Or Something Like It" won't leave me. I keep thinking what would I be doing differently if I was living like it was my last day????

I know for darn sure I would not be working at the bar. I would probably spend more time with Albert and my son. And all the typical stuff people would say....

Like I mentioned I know for sure I would not be working where I work if I was truly living everyday to the fullest as if my last. Instead, I would be helping people and contributing to something positive in the world. But that leaves me with the question "What would I do?"

To be honest it would have to be something I could do from home or didn't take much time away because I want to have a baby with Albert, be a good partner to him and a wonderful parent to Joel and what kids Albert and I have. I would also need time to grow and be me.

But I know I wouldn't be happy unless I was contributing to mankind in a positive way. I am just not clear on how. And this is really plaging me. I am so inspired right now to make drastic changes for the positive, I just don't know what way to go. If I was given a path and knew at least my next step I would take it!!!

Now on to another subject. Copywriting. I am learning more and more from the book "Hypnotic Writing" I hope to start practicing the techniques soon. I am also very interested in any seminar or workshop about copywriting. If I come across anything I will definitely let everyone know.

A bizarre thing happened to me!!! My myspace page was deleted. They said I violated some rule. Which is weird because I hadn't signed into that specific account for a few weeks and hadn't posted anything really for almost two months!

Everything happens for a reason, for some reason I was meant to build a new myspace page! :o)

Happy Mothers Day to all the Mothers,

Tiffany

Catching up!

2008-05-07T19:30:00.000-07:00

So it looks like life has taken me in several different directions. I am however still committed to learning internet marketing.

Right now I have been reading a book called "Hypnotic Writing", I forgot who its by and its in my car( I will add it on later). The more I learn about internet marketing the more I realize that copywriting is "one of the main ingredients"!!!!!

I love the style of Hypnotic Writing because his techniques are using "Love" as the drive to buy products, not Pain like the majority of marketers.

Also I think I am going to change the name of this blog, if I am able to! I will still be going over internet marketing but this blog has been about my growth in all areas of my life so far, so I would like to properly name it.

2008 is definitely going to be a year of dramatic growth for me and dramatic changes ( I feel it).

My relationships is like night and day from just six months ago. I never thought you could be more in love with someone after two years. I always thought that "in love" feeling starts fading. And I can only see it growing!!! The most amazing thing is he is growing right along side me. I am so lucky to have him, but I am starting to see how lucky we are to have each other. A partnership I am very grateful for!

I am sending my son to a skate camp for the summer! www.skatecamp.org

I am nervous because he is my baby, they will be jumping off cliffs, riding, skating into a lake, producing videos, learning how to start a fire in nature, producing a magazine and so much more. It is costing me, I have to work an entire week to pay for a week of him being there!!! But I know it will result in such growth and him coming into himself. I think he will be more self reliant and confident with himself afterwards. Plus I know he will have a blast.

I invest a lot into myself (which I believe is the best investment ANYONE can make), so investing into his growth is just as good! I am SOOOOO excited for him!

I have two big events this month alone!!! Next week is Never Work Again, with Peak Potentials. Then I have my Zrii convention the week after. Deepak Chopra will be there and I get to spend a few days with a team member and finally get to meet my business partner! My website is www.lifefree2008.com if you're curious about it.

I have one more year of school left!!! Then I will have my B.S. in Business Entrepreneurship!

But I think the biggest thing is through all of this, my life gets better and better. The more I work on myself, the better things get not only in my physical world but my "inner world". Meaning the way I deal with things and see things is just better! My moods are more stable and they slowly elevate as I grow.

I am coming into myself! I am starting to really express myself. I sing in front of my boyfriend now! I know that doesn't sound like much but me singing and dancing without alcohol is like asking a private shy person who is very reserved to go be the life of a party (without alcohol).

I guess in general I just feel more comfortable about being me. I don't take it as personal when people don't like me and I care less and less of what people think of me. Not feeling a need to pretend or hold back. It is a great feeling to just be me and stand by who I am, without all that other "haze" surrounding it.

Like I will always say I have so much more to learn and grow. The "positive" journey has just began! Thank you to all who is taking part of it! :o)

Namaste,
Tiffany

Relationships

2008-04-26T22:31:00.001-07:00

I know this is supposed to be about internet marketing and I got way side tracked by all my seminars but I have some other stuff on my mind so I am just going to express myself here.

This weekend I have been attending a relationship seminar by PAX. You can visit them at Understand Men.

The first day of this seminar I was shocked about how much I learned. Today I became a little emotional and tense.

I have always known what a great guy I have and how fortunate I am to have him in my life. Today I realized that I don't fully express that to him so that he can experience my gratitude and admiration.

I was depressed by how naive I was, not only for him but all men.

I am so happy that I had a new friend with me, Crystal. Who quickly helped me clear the haze and mental anxiety of my past.

I understand why it is so hard to grow, when you are going through the initial eye opening experience, sometimes it can be very painful but as soon the "newness" sorts itself out, things become..... Even more beautiful than before. IT IS ALWAYS WORTH IT!

I don't have any other words to describe this, other than how grateful I am to not only be attending these workshops from PAX (Relationships w/men, although the results are always personal growth) and Peak Potentials (Personal growth in ALL areas) but also the people I meet in these workshops and the person I am becoming.

Because of the work these people do, everyday I am a better and better person for anyone and everyone in my life. I am excited to take part in helping others grow and become who they want to be.

I am also grateful for all those that I have met and yet to meet that are like minded (growth). Every single conversation is a growing and life changing experience!

I hope that whenever I am feeling under the weather, that I remember all these things. My beautiful son who impresses me daily. My absolutely amazing boyfriend who loves me for me and supports me in all that I do. For my friends and loved ones. For the ability to read, write, attend workshops, learn, and grow. As well as the ability to help others transform their lives..

And the journey has just begun!

Thank you for taking part of this,
Tiffany

Train the trainer experience!

2008-04-25T11:34:00.000-07:00

Its been a while!!!

After Train the Trainer, everything in my life was very "backed up". I had to catch up on school, work, spend time with my son, boyfriend, etc..

Sorry it took so long for me to write about it!

I have been to several of Peak Potentials programs and will be attending several more. But this one was by far the most intense for me. I knew it was going to be.

The first Time I attended Millionaire Mind Intensive, I knew out of all their programs I wanted to attend "The enlightened warrior camp" and "Train the Trainer."

I signed up for Enlightened Warrior (I will be attending it this August) but I didn't even consider signing up for Train the Trainer. When I realized at the Life Directions workshop that I didn't sign up for TT1(Train the Trainer) because it scared the "jeepers" out of me, I decided to sign up before my head could get in the way. So that is how I got to TT1.

Now I see why it scared me. I was completely out of my comfort zone the entire time. No one seemed as scared as I did one of the nights. I don't want to give too much away but we had some "fun" nights. Singing, dancing, letting go and just enjoying life. Well one time during these events I just cried. I couldn't help it, I was so scared but I did it anyways. I don't know how I got on that stage (like I said I am trying not to give too much away) or how I lasted up there, and to be honest it is still a haze to me. But I did it!!!!

I seem to be much more aware of when I care what people think of me and also aware of my hesitations to be myself. They offer Train the Trainer 2 and would love to go, and I plan to in the future but I would like to attend warrior camp first and work on myself a little more before I go to TT2. I did have a huge revelation (which is why I love Peak potentials so much, they seem to be good at this) at TT1. I realized I am a very serious girl and its hard for me to lighten up and just enjoy life.

Sadness, frowning, anger, etc.. are easy for me to express and feel. But I feel embarrassed to smile and be happy, almost like it is wrong. Logically I know this its not wrong to feel good or happy but there is something that really scares me and holds me back from expressing and experiencing positive emotions. This is such a huge realization for me. I can now work on trying to laugh, smile, enjoy, and have fun more often. The first step to anything is knowing exists in the first place. Because of TT1, I am already 10 steps ahead of where I was with this.

I will lighten up and just enjoy life and have fun!!!!!

I can definitely feel the difference already!

OH YEAH!!!!!! I almost forgot.. Peak potentials teaches you a way of "training" (speaking in front of others) that keeps your audience engaged at ALL times. They have very unique ways of teaching it as well. All I must say is that when I did my final presentation, my body and mind automatically did things that they taught us without even thinking about it? Can anyone say "That is awesome!"? :o)

The environment at peak potentials trainers is always very supportive and compassionate. I have met the most amazing people at their events. This time people were passing around a list of numbers and names for support groups. We have already connected through a yahoo group. This is absolutely amazing!!!!

I will talk more about it TT1 later. I am actually off to another three day workshop but not for peak potentials!!!! I am really excited about watching someone else speak. As Rob (The Trainer at TT1) mentioned we will all notice everything a speaker does or DOESN'T DO after TT1!! :o) I might be screaming by the end of this workshop "Please, Let Me At Least High Five Someone!" :o)

We'll catch up soon! I miss writing!!!

Namaste,
Tiffany

Playing with the cam! Recent Pic!

2008-04-13T12:56:00.000-07:00

This picture is of my son and I. It is the most recent picture I have of myself.

I am off to the gym and then time to get ready to leave for the seminar tomorrow.

I must say that as I learn more and more about internet marketing I discover there is more and more to learn. I know I need to get my page up and running soon if I am going to be able to learn most of the other things especially by my goal date.

I can see there still is a study amount of readers, I would really love to hear your comments!

Love,
Tiffany

My Myspace!

2008-04-12T19:57:00.001-07:00

Since I didn't have any time to do anything new today. I decided to invite everyone to take a look at my myspace page.

If you click the title is should link you to my myspace page. Also here it is again. Tiffanys Myspace

I am getting more and more anxious about my Train the Trainer Seminar coming up. It is five days long! I expect to come back here and report lots of new stuff!!!

:o)

Tiffany

Trying out Video.

2008-04-12T01:57:00.000-07:00

The video below is my first attempt at a webcam, I literally took it out of the box a few hours ago. I had my son sing for me. He was a little embarrased but he got better as the prgressed. However, I really need to play with the settings because I am not satisfied with the quality of the video or the audio.

I opened it in windows movie maker and added the title and ending.

Hopefully much more video's to come.

The website at address at the end is just a domain name that redirects to this blog!

:o)

Happy watching,

Tiffany

HELLO!~~~

2008-04-11T02:30:00.001-07:00

I am getting more and more excited. Although I don't have my site up yet because I need to get a little more clear about some of the content, it all is coming together.

I leave monday to go to an intensive seminar called "Train the Trainer" by T.Harv Eker. He wrote the book Secrets of a Millionaire Mind And conducts well known seminars that help change your financial blueprint and set you up for success. Those events are called Millionaire Mind Intensive.

The seminar I am attending is to help with public speaking, conducting my own seminars and stuff along those lines. Pretty much engaging an audience and doing so comfortably and confidently. I love seminars! But this seminar actually creates the most fear in me because I don't know about you guys but just thinking about public speaking makes me nervous.

I will be updating everyone on that when I get back.

Maybe friday or saturday I will be able to get my website up. We'll see! :o) I have been very busy, exercising, homework, work, etc.. But as my energy level keeps rising I know I will have more free time and "motivated" time to dedicate to learning internet marketing.

I did however learn something new today. There is something they call linking, it is one technique they use for SEO (search engine optimization). There is a list of sites you can submit your website url to that MAY help increase traffic to your site.

Bottom line is the more links you have on the web linking back to your website, the more the search engines will like your page! So if you have friends with websites or any other means to get your link onto someone's page, I highly suggest you do that!

It is time for bed now.

Good night,
Tiffany

Website hosting!

2008-04-08T13:43:00.000-07:00

I have it narrowed down to two. SBI and IPowerWeb.

SBI costs more than IPowerWeb. However, SBI offers many more features, any features that you think you could possibly need.

Both seem to be user friendly and highly recommended. The cost is per site, so if you have more than one site the costs can add up.

SBI is recommended highly, as well as IPowerWeb but they are both affiliate programs, meaning if someone is recommending SBI and you purchase it, they will recieve some compensation.

SBI seems to be a program that is geared towards making money online and they have a lot of tools helping you do that.

I have researched both but still have not made up my mind. I will have to decide soon because I plan on starting to work on the site, tomorrow!

If anyone has any suggestions, let me know what you think!

Namaste,
Tiffany

Excited!!!

2008-04-07T21:49:00.000-07:00

I had an appointment with my spiritual coach today. I had decided to talk to her about my challenge of learning internet marketing.

I explained how in order to start learning I must find a niche market so I have a product to market, etc.... And she said why search for what others are looking for, why not build a site and learn to market it with ANYTHING that had to do with what I have a passion for.

Remember when I wrote about the keyword search and how i was disappointed with the results? I had did a search on one of my biggest passions and I did not recieve a desirable result. From what I can tell (remember I am no expert), this particuliar passion (I will tell you what it is soon) did not have a significant amount of searchs. Meaning not very many people were interests in the niche (not a big market).

So I went on to the next thing and never looked back! The last few days this topic has been coming up for me over and over again and I couldn't stop thinking about it. However, I never reconsidered it because there wasn't a significant market for it.

Well....... I am going to go for it!!! I would rather have fun learn to market something I have my heart in, then trying to market something that I don't care for just because it appears to have a huge demand.

I know I have mentioned before that I love growth, self development, etc... Well what I love the most is those "aha" moments. Now what are those "aha" moments?

"Aha" moments or epiphanies are moments of clarity, when you see something from a clear new perspective for the first time, when the blind fold is removed in a certain way, etc...

I LOVE THAT FEELING AND WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO HELP OTHERS EXPERIENCE THAT WONDERFUL FEELING.

Call it what you want. From pushing past fears, removing the haze, achieving clarity, removing negative beliefs, removing the blind fold, increasing awareness, being more conscious, etc..

I don't know how I will market it or what way I will word it, but it sure is what I will be focusing on!

I am excited.

Although I don't know what contents my site will have on it or what I will be selling or promoting in order for me to see if it is successful, all I know is it feels SOOOOO right!

If you are looking for a niche market, I highly recommend not just jumping on to a keyword search tool, trying to find what everyone is looking for. What are YOU looking for? Follow your heart and then use the tool to refine what resignates with you!

By the way, it turned out my spiritual coach is very familiar with internet marketing, something along the lines of internet marketing is what she did prior to her "heart" work! :O) She even recommended a site builder that is much cheaper than the one I was previously looking at. Her website is www.laurabonilla.com.

Lots of love,
Tiffany

Lagging BUT........

2008-04-06T15:04:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't been quite on top of it as I would like to be. However, I have been exercising the last three days which was one of the things I had said I wanted to make sure I do.

I can already feel the difference in my energy level. Today I got up and instead of lounging around as I would normally do and slowly wake up. I jumped out of bed with a list of stuff that I wanted to do. I cleaned up a bit, did some laundry, took my son to his grandpa's and then went to the gym.

I have to work tonight so I don't think I will be able to spend anytime on internet marketing, but I have been reading the book "101 ways to promote your business" at work when it is slow. I also have an idea of what direction I am headed in with a product.

I can see I have an average of 20 readers a day already, I would like to encourage everyone to please leave comments. Be open and honest, a simple hi, a suggestion, yell at me when I am slacking... Whatever!!!

It would really motivate me to be more connected with my readers. And I would love hear what things you guys want to learn or would like to see!!!

If you would like to be updated everytime I post a new blog, click the link on the top right that says subscribe reader. You can choose your options of how you are notified.

I look forward to making some real progress real soon and for those of you along for the ride, I promise this will be a learning and inspirational experience!

Namaste,
Tiffany

Internet marketing workshops, seminars, etc..

2008-04-04T11:30:00.001-07:00

This is more of a request for information or suggestions.

I have done several searches looking for a workshop or course on internet marketing in my area(anywhere in california). However most that show up have past already. I can't seem to find anything that will be coming up other than next weekend which I have a public speaking seminar already scheduled.

There has to be more out there!! I will even travel outside the state if i have to.

To begin I was looking for a workshop/seminar that would be for a newbie. A one to three day seminar would be ideal. If I have to travel far it would have to be in June.

If I find anything I will post them here for others to be able to gain from it as well.

I will post again later today,
Tiffany

Slight Disappointment!

2008-04-03T23:24:00.000-07:00

I am kind of disappointed right now.

I invested quite a bit of time using a program called BeBiz to do some keyword research and came up extremely empty handed. I assumed the tool at BeBiz was going to analyze my results just like WordTracker does and unfortunately I was wrong.

I took a lot of time to enter a lot of my interests and do some research about them in that system. It's not that big of a deal, but now I have to go to WordTracker and purchase another keyword search tool and learn that tool (hopefully it won't take too long).

I will let you know how that goes.

I did see a slight trend in some of the searches that pertain to my interests.

If this takes too much more time, without getting a product I will just pick something for the purpose of learning internet marketing!

I have also been thinking about building a free site and just offering information for now. I could still track how many visitors visit my site, only all of the paid marketing strategies will have to be learned at a lose.

I will decide what I am going to do by tomorrow!

Good night,
Tiffany

Keywords! Interests, Passions.

2008-04-02T14:28:00.000-07:00

I did this work yesterday but didn't have time to post it in a blog.

So here it is.

First I wrote a list of all my interests, passions, stuff I enjoy learning about, things people would come to me for advice for, etc.. These are all good ways to find a market that would keep your interest and focus. I know I will definitely need that!

Here is a shortened list, I don't want to bore you! I omitted anything that I find irrelevent, like spending time with loved ones, etc..

Growing
Progression
Learning
Human Behavior
New Experiences
New Relationships
The mind
The brain
New outlooks/perspectives
Spirituality
Energy
Quantum Physics
Metaphysics
Pushing past self limitations
increasing Awareness or being conscious
Pushing past fear
Internet marketing
Financial freedom
Increasing strength
Increasing love
Increasing inner peace
Increasing quality of my life and others
Self improvement
Personal development
Roller skating
Dynamics of relationships
Rising to full potential
Life
Recognizing subconscious habits and patterns
The law of attraction
Discipline
Investment
Real-estate
The thought process
Angels

Ok I will stop there. My next step is to find action words from all of these interests. I have began to search for action words for these interests and passions, however I have noticed most seem to be action words already.

Now I have to find problems within these interests. I have posted on some group forums that have some of these interests, asking them what problems they encounter with these things.

I tried to come up with a few myself but still come up with very general terms. Such as:
Fear and Doubt
Lack of Focus
Lack of Dedication

My challenge now is to come up with a problem people face within one of some of these interests. Example what problems or issues do people face when they try to grow or progress in life? I am hoping the results from the group forums will help me out a bit in this area.

I will post my findings and then I will have to use a keyword tool to see which phrases/problems will be a good market.
Good Market = A lot of searches for those keywords without a lot of websites already serving that niche market.

Wish me luck,
Tiffany

Learning some more!

2008-03-31T15:06:00.000-07:00

I purchased a book called "101 ways to promote your website". If anyone plans on learning along with me, this book might be a good idea. However, I will try and clearly explain everything as much as possible.

I would like to add to our list of things we will learn.

RSS (Real Simple Syndication)
Viral marketing
Landing Pages
Affiliate Marketing

I have been reading a bit on RSS feed. It is that button that you see on the top right of this blog, that says subscribe. What this will allow you to do is subscribe to this blog so that any time an update is posted you will be notified. There are also many other methods. For instance I could subscribe my myspace page to this blog through RSS feed. So everytime I post a new blog, My myspace page will also show the new blog post. This is getting a little more complex. You can learn about the multiple ways of using RSS Feed at www.feedburner.com. For now I am going to keep it simple.

I decided before we go on any further we need to find a product to promote. This will be our test dummy so to speak because we need to have a product to build a website about and to advertise. I would love for this product or idea we plan on promoting, to be something aligned with my interests. I am very passionate about growth and reaching our full potential (happiness, peace, etc.) as humans. We can learn everyday of our lives and not get close to learning everything there is to learn.

I also have a fascination with the mind and psychology, something along these lines would be ideal.

So to start we must come up with a problem that needs to be solved, then a way to solve that problem. Then we can do some keyword searches on the topics and see what is best.

I plan on having a list of possible problems tomorrow!

Good night,
Tiffany

The Beginning

2008-03-30T16:18:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking a little about how I will measure whether or not I reach my goal. I believe the best way to measure it would be different for each task.

Example Email marketing:

In order for this to work I must first have a database of people to email. Then to measure whether I have successfully learned email marketing, I would have to measure the percentage of response compared to the amount of emails that go out, etc.. I could be wrong and way off but we will figure it all out as we go.

So for now I believe I will set a goal date of June 30th. By this date in order to say I successfully learned internet marketing (or at least begun to), I will need to be successful in each area, I mentioned in the last blog. plus I am adding one more.

1. Finding a niche market

2. Building a successful website

3. SEO (Search Engine Optimization)

4. Video Marketing

5. PPC (Pay Per Click)

6. AdSense

7. Email Marketing

8. Ezine's

9. Anything else that comes up.

I believe that is the order in which I will be focusing on them, but I am sure things might change as we go along.

I am in the process of setting up an account with BeBiz, which is like WordTracker. These are Keyword search tools, that help find what people are searching for on search engines and maybe not getting a lot of results. Meaning the competition is low in that market.

If anyone would like me to discuss that more, let me know. I don't know how well I could explain it but if someone else needs clarification on it, then I am not explaining it well and probably means I need to become more clear on it myself.

I really would like to find some more time to dedicate to this and a little bit more of a direction to go in.

I work the next three nights and start my spring quarter for school this week so its going to take a lot of focus and dedication in order to accomplish this goal. That is why i am committing myself to writing here EVERY SINGLE day.

I have a few seminars coming up in April and May, so I don't know how I am going to work out writing here everyday but its a must. I might not have time to do any work (one seminar is monday thru friday 9a.m. to 11p.m. and is an hour away from my home) but I will at least write about my experiences there and what I learned.

I would also like to make sure I get to the gym at least three times a week. My energy level is much higher when I am exercising on a regular basis and my sleep is much better as well. I really feel that it will directly impact how much I can get done.

See you tomorrow,

Tiffany

Intro

2008-03-29T19:15:00.000-07:00

Hello Everyone,

My name is Tiffany and I am determined to learn internet marketing. I am a 27 year old mother in southern california. While trying to build a business online, I discovered how complex and vast the world of internet marketing is. I have purchased internet marketing systems, site building systems, affiliate programs, and educational programs all in effort to try and learn internet marketing quickly, with no progress. I have searched for seminars and workshops in my area that teach internet marketing, as well as internships or mentors. So because there doesn't appear to be anything close to me at this time and no system has yet taught me in the in's and out's of internet marketing, I begin this journey knowing nothing, not even were to start! So this blog is my starting point.

I am giving myself a goal of 3 months. Now the question comes with internet marketing how will I measure whether or not I have learned it and learned it correctly? How will I measure whether I reached my goal or not and exactly what are the specifics of my goal? Since there are numerous ways to market online and since I don't even have anything to market yet, these questions will be something I will have to think about.

Things I will tackle:
1. Building a successful website
2. Video marketing
3. Email marketing
4. PPC (pay per click)
5. SEO (search engine optimization)
6. Adsense
7. Ezines
8. Anything else that crosses my path

In the next few days I plan on getting my webcam set up so that I can show you guys what I am doing and how to do things when I learn them. I will also become very clear about how I will measure whether I have reached my goal of learning internet marketing with in 3 months. I need a starting point and where to go from here. And I would also like to talk more about myself so that everyone may know where I am coming from and a little more about who this woman is that is trying to learn internet marketing!

I have a woman who will be mentoring me along this journey. She attempted to raise 2.75 million dollars in 90 days online. She didn't reach her goal in time to purchase the land in which she was raising the money for, however she did raise a substantial amount and I am sure she learned a thing or two along the way! Her name is Cath Wood, I will put her website on here as soon as I learn how to add links! :o)

If you anyone would like to contact me for any reason, you may do so at TiffanyZrii@gmail.com until I create a new gmail account.

I look forward to taking this journey and hopefully helping some of you learn a thing or two along the way, as well!

Sincerely,
Tiffany