Drama of life

It's moments like these that I look to dramatically increase.  When I stop to "Smell the roses" to count my blessings.  Yet it can never be on demand.  I cannot demand such pure feelings as so many try to teach.

As days go by I get more and more clear about the meaning of being in the drama of life.  As I wake worrying about the list of todo's and the must have's of the day, the expectation of a lover, the chores of caring for child, the person in my way to get where I am going, the money being spent, the class I must attend, the work I must perform, etc.



OR


To think how today is brighter than yesterday.
How I have more knowledge than before.
My mind is clearer and I am happier than ever
And I am definitely stronger than I have ever been.
Not to mention....
I couldn't have asked for a better lover or could have imagined how close  and strong we would be.
Or the beautiful relationship I have with my son and how its evolving
The new found confidence and love for myself
The wonderful opportunities all coming my way
And How excited I am about my future and MY LIFE.



I guess we all have a choice of how we look at our lives, the task of getting through it or the beauty flowing from it.



I couldn't ask for better people in my life.  It's time to remember how blessed I am, even in the midst of my todo's.


Isn't that what its ultimately about anyways, we will always have todo's but never again will we have today.


A lesson I am sure I will rediscover over and over again.

I intend to remember these blessings instead of getting caught up in the drama of daily activities.  This awareness in it self is a blessing and I am sure will continue to evolve.  I have noticed that it is not something you can just tell someone to do, it must be experienced and felt, but I believe it could be taught.

Unfolding of Life

To expect magnificent but not know how you got there. To know it will get even better and know you couldn't dream up what the universe will produce is scary, exciting, illuminating, and anxious.

How do you explain a feeling of faith yet fear. A feeling of great but not quite there. It's like smelling the cookies bake, knowing they are there but also knowing it is not time to eat them just yet. When will they be ready? It could be five maybe ten..... Who knows, but THEY ARE MINE(I made them and now I can smell them)!

The flowers are blooming and they will be beautiful but OH what colors will they be?


Love and Light, Tiffany

My two cents about complaining and drama!

Complaining and Drama go hand and hand.

When you complain you are caught up the drama and emotion of something. Instead take a step back and observing the event, even if it is oneself, this removes the "drama" of any situation. You can not play the "victim" role (which is complaining) with out "drama".

Observing one's own reaction creates compassion for others. However coming from a previous state of mind when I used to allow myself to experience the "drama" (emotion) of the situation, into a place of observance and awareness creates a different type of compassion ( in which creates some "drama" on another level.)

I am not however free from this experience myself, although my awareness is expansive, I am human and still find myself "pulled" (victim word) into the emotion of experiences.

The ability to step back and watch the emotion unfold and to observe your own reactions, is a life practice.

Complaining is a sure sign to know you or someone else is coming from the "victim" mentality and wrapped up in all the "drama" of it.

It is impossible to take full responsibility for your own life and manifestation and still complain. It is impossible to observe a situation and still feel emotion, because it is our judgments of a situation that create emotion. You can not judge something and just observe it at the same time.

Nevertheless, Emotion is a human attribute meaning you can not fully escape it, it is what we are here for, but does it have control over you, or do you control it?

Ultimately the concepts can be understood in an instant but can take a lifetime to experience fully.

I remain a student.

:o)



Lots of love,
Tiffany

P.S. Today I had a "Tiffy" moment where I became anxious about something, I did not stop myself reacting with emotion however I did observe my reaction, which immediately gave it a different "look". I definitely responded to the situation much differently because of this. I also find that in difficult times, I now prefer to call companions that will not add to the "drama" of the situation but will act as a "rock", when needed. Life will continue to throw curve balls, the outcomes of them however rest solely in our own hands.

(This was my thoughts after reading an article by DialyOm)

How is my life still so busy?

No complaints here though.

Things have been great. I think I am barely catching up on sleep, plus I have been back to my gym routine.

I started my commitment to eating healthier as well, this past Monday.

I have been reading A LOT.

I also have been working on affirmations. I bought some software but it really wasn't for me, I think I mentioned it in another blog.

So I decided on just normal recording software.

I have my list of affirmations, and while writing them I was provided with evidence about how powerful they could be. I highly recommend taking time to do affirmations.

Through the process, I have learned quite a few techniques that will really have an impact if your interested in using affirmations.

Those posts to come.

Another new event, I bought my boyfriend a new camera for his birthday and decided to buy one for myself as well.

The camera is able to take pictures extremely close to the subject which has caused me to take a deeper look at things lately.

Kind of funny how things work, there are some pictures on my myspace page.



Namaste,
Tiffany

The Next Two Weeks!

I just wanted to say "Hi" to everyone and give a little update.

I have decided to go with SBI for my website hosting.

So I know I set a goal intitially of June but that is not going to happen as you can all tell. I have had and still have several events and between school and work it just became very overwhelming. I should have known that from the beginning but I always tend to think I could take on anything.

I am however only taking one class this summer and do not have any events planned for June or July.

Meaning...... I plan on really working on my site and learning internet marketing those two months.

Tomorrow I will be attending "Never Work Again". It's a seminar that is supposed to teach several different passive income methods. I have heard mixed opinions about this seminar, but I will give my honest opinion after I attend.

Then next thursday I am flying to Salt Lake City, UT for my business convention! Go Zrii! www.livefree2008.com. I finally get to meet my business partner and spend the week with a good friend Heidi.

By the way Zrii just came out in a very popular magazine!

Well that is my mini update! Stick around for some good stuff coming this way!!

:o)

Namaste,
Tiffany

Life or Something Like It

I just watched a movie with my son called "Life or Something Like it", where Angelina Jolie plays a beautiful woman who has everything she thought she ever wanted but when a psychic tells her she is going to die in a week she starts to question everything in her life.

The whole lesson of the movie is to live everyday as if your last. Be yourself, enjoy everything!

I have been watching quite a bit of movies lately. I seen "Made of Honor" with Heather, it was cute. The lesson is pretty much to appreciate what you have and not to take people in your life for granted.

I saw "What Happens in Vegas" with Albert yesterday. It was a cute movie. A lot of relationship lessons and gender differences.

Today I saw "Speed Racer" with Joel. It was a cute movie as well. A movie about passion and following what you believe is right.

But this movie, "Life Or Something Like It" won't leave me. I keep thinking what would I be doing differently if I was living like it was my last day????

I know for darn sure I would not be working at the bar. I would probably spend more time with Albert and my son. And all the typical stuff people would say....

Like I mentioned I know for sure I would not be working where I work if I was truly living everyday to the fullest as if my last. Instead, I would be helping people and contributing to something positive in the world. But that leaves me with the question "What would I do?"

To be honest it would have to be something I could do from home or didn't take much time away because I want to have a baby with Albert, be a good partner to him and a wonderful parent to Joel and what kids Albert and I have. I would also need time to grow and be me.

But I know I wouldn't be happy unless I was contributing to mankind in a positive way. I am just not clear on how. And this is really plaging me. I am so inspired right now to make drastic changes for the positive, I just don't know what way to go. If I was given a path and knew at least my next step I would take it!!!



Now on to another subject. Copywriting. I am learning more and more from the book "Hypnotic Writing" I hope to start practicing the techniques soon. I am also very interested in any seminar or workshop about copywriting. If I come across anything I will definitely let everyone know.


A bizarre thing happened to me!!! My myspace page was deleted. They said I violated some rule. Which is weird because I hadn't signed into that specific account for a few weeks and hadn't posted anything really for almost two months!

Everything happens for a reason, for some reason I was meant to build a new myspace page! :o)

Happy Mothers Day to all the Mothers,

Tiffany

Catching up!

So it looks like life has taken me in several different directions. I am however still committed to learning internet marketing.

Right now I have been reading a book called "Hypnotic Writing", I forgot who its by and its in my car( I will add it on later). The more I learn about internet marketing the more I realize that copywriting is "one of the main ingredients"!!!!!

I love the style of Hypnotic Writing because his techniques are using "Love" as the drive to buy products, not Pain like the majority of marketers.

Also I think I am going to change the name of this blog, if I am able to! I will still be going over internet marketing but this blog has been about my growth in all areas of my life so far, so I would like to properly name it.

2008 is definitely going to be a year of dramatic growth for me and dramatic changes ( I feel it).

My relationships is like night and day from just six months ago. I never thought you could be more in love with someone after two years. I always thought that "in love" feeling starts fading. And I can only see it growing!!! The most amazing thing is he is growing right along side me. I am so lucky to have him, but I am starting to see how lucky we are to have each other. A partnership I am very grateful for!

I am sending my son to a skate camp for the summer! www.skatecamp.org

I am nervous because he is my baby, they will be jumping off cliffs, riding, skating into a lake, producing videos, learning how to start a fire in nature, producing a magazine and so much more. It is costing me, I have to work an entire week to pay for a week of him being there!!! But I know it will result in such growth and him coming into himself. I think he will be more self reliant and confident with himself afterwards. Plus I know he will have a blast.

I invest a lot into myself (which I believe is the best investment ANYONE can make), so investing into his growth is just as good! I am SOOOOO excited for him!

I have two big events this month alone!!! Next week is Never Work Again, with Peak Potentials. Then I have my Zrii convention the week after. Deepak Chopra will be there and I get to spend a few days with a team member and finally get to meet my business partner! My website is www.lifefree2008.com if you're curious about it.

I have one more year of school left!!! Then I will have my B.S. in Business Entrepreneurship!

But I think the biggest thing is through all of this, my life gets better and better. The more I work on myself, the better things get not only in my physical world but my "inner world". Meaning the way I deal with things and see things is just better! My moods are more stable and they slowly elevate as I grow.

I am coming into myself! I am starting to really express myself. I sing in front of my boyfriend now! I know that doesn't sound like much but me singing and dancing without alcohol is like asking a private shy person who is very reserved to go be the life of a party (without alcohol).

I guess in general I just feel more comfortable about being me. I don't take it as personal when people don't like me and I care less and less of what people think of me. Not feeling a need to pretend or hold back. It is a great feeling to just be me and stand by who I am, without all that other "haze" surrounding it.

Like I will always say I have so much more to learn and grow. The "positive" journey has just began! Thank you to all who is taking part of it! :o)

Namaste,
Tiffany

Relationships

I know this is supposed to be about internet marketing and I got way side tracked by all my seminars but I have some other stuff on my mind so I am just going to express myself here.

This weekend I have been attending a relationship seminar by PAX. You can visit them at Understand Men.

The first day of this seminar I was shocked about how much I learned. Today I became a little emotional and tense.

I have always known what a great guy I have and how fortunate I am to have him in my life. Today I realized that I don't fully express that to him so that he can experience my gratitude and admiration.

I was depressed by how naive I was, not only for him but all men.

I am so happy that I had a new friend with me, Crystal. Who quickly helped me clear the haze and mental anxiety of my past.

I understand why it is so hard to grow, when you are going through the initial eye opening experience, sometimes it can be very painful but as soon the "newness" sorts itself out, things become..... Even more beautiful than before. IT IS ALWAYS WORTH IT!

I don't have any other words to describe this, other than how grateful I am to not only be attending these workshops from PAX (Relationships w/men, although the results are always personal growth) and Peak Potentials (Personal growth in ALL areas) but also the people I meet in these workshops and the person I am becoming.

Because of the work these people do, everyday I am a better and better person for anyone and everyone in my life. I am excited to take part in helping others grow and become who they want to be.

I am also grateful for all those that I have met and yet to meet that are like minded (growth). Every single conversation is a growing and life changing experience!

I hope that whenever I am feeling under the weather, that I remember all these things. My beautiful son who impresses me daily. My absolutely amazing boyfriend who loves me for me and supports me in all that I do. For my friends and loved ones. For the ability to read, write, attend workshops, learn, and grow. As well as the ability to help others transform their lives..

And the journey has just begun!

Thank you for taking part of this,
Tiffany

Train the trainer experience!

Its been a while!!!

After Train the Trainer, everything in my life was very "backed up". I had to catch up on school, work, spend time with my son, boyfriend, etc..

Sorry it took so long for me to write about it!

I have been to several of Peak Potentials programs and will be attending several more. But this one was by far the most intense for me. I knew it was going to be.

The first Time I attended Millionaire Mind Intensive, I knew out of all their programs I wanted to attend "The enlightened warrior camp" and "Train the Trainer."

I signed up for Enlightened Warrior (I will be attending it this August) but I didn't even consider signing up for Train the Trainer. When I realized at the Life Directions workshop that I didn't sign up for TT1(Train the Trainer) because it scared the "jeepers" out of me, I decided to sign up before my head could get in the way. So that is how I got to TT1.

Now I see why it scared me. I was completely out of my comfort zone the entire time. No one seemed as scared as I did one of the nights. I don't want to give too much away but we had some "fun" nights. Singing, dancing, letting go and just enjoying life. Well one time during these events I just cried. I couldn't help it, I was so scared but I did it anyways. I don't know how I got on that stage (like I said I am trying not to give too much away) or how I lasted up there, and to be honest it is still a haze to me. But I did it!!!!

I seem to be much more aware of when I care what people think of me and also aware of my hesitations to be myself. They offer Train the Trainer 2 and would love to go, and I plan to in the future but I would like to attend warrior camp first and work on myself a little more before I go to TT2. I did have a huge revelation (which is why I love Peak potentials so much, they seem to be good at this) at TT1. I realized I am a very serious girl and its hard for me to lighten up and just enjoy life.

Sadness, frowning, anger, etc.. are easy for me to express and feel. But I feel embarrassed to smile and be happy, almost like it is wrong. Logically I know this its not wrong to feel good or happy but there is something that really scares me and holds me back from expressing and experiencing positive emotions. This is such a huge realization for me. I can now work on trying to laugh, smile, enjoy, and have fun more often. The first step to anything is knowing exists in the first place. Because of TT1, I am already 10 steps ahead of where I was with this.

I will lighten up and just enjoy life and have fun!!!!!

I can definitely feel the difference already!

OH YEAH!!!!!! I almost forgot.. Peak potentials teaches you a way of "training" (speaking in front of others) that keeps your audience engaged at ALL times. They have very unique ways of teaching it as well. All I must say is that when I did my final presentation, my body and mind automatically did things that they taught us without even thinking about it? Can anyone say "That is awesome!"? :o)

The environment at peak potentials trainers is always very supportive and compassionate. I have met the most amazing people at their events. This time people were passing around a list of numbers and names for support groups. We have already connected through a yahoo group. This is absolutely amazing!!!!

I will talk more about it TT1 later. I am actually off to another three day workshop but not for peak potentials!!!! I am really excited about watching someone else speak. As Rob (The Trainer at TT1) mentioned we will all notice everything a speaker does or DOESN'T DO after TT1!! :o) I might be screaming by the end of this workshop "Please, Let Me At Least High Five Someone!" :o)

We'll catch up soon! I miss writing!!!


Namaste,
Tiffany

Excited!!!

I had an appointment with my spiritual coach today. I had decided to talk to her about my challenge of learning internet marketing.

I explained how in order to start learning I must find a niche market so I have a product to market, etc.... And she said why search for what others are looking for, why not build a site and learn to market it with ANYTHING that had to do with what I have a passion for.

Remember when I wrote about the keyword search and how i was disappointed with the results? I had did a search on one of my biggest passions and I did not recieve a desirable result. From what I can tell (remember I am no expert), this particuliar passion (I will tell you what it is soon) did not have a significant amount of searchs. Meaning not very many people were interests in the niche (not a big market).

So I went on to the next thing and never looked back! The last few days this topic has been coming up for me over and over again and I couldn't stop thinking about it. However, I never reconsidered it because there wasn't a significant market for it.

Well....... I am going to go for it!!! I would rather have fun learn to market something I have my heart in, then trying to market something that I don't care for just because it appears to have a huge demand.

I know I have mentioned before that I love growth, self development, etc... Well what I love the most is those "aha" moments. Now what are those "aha" moments?

"Aha" moments or epiphanies are moments of clarity, when you see something from a clear new perspective for the first time, when the blind fold is removed in a certain way, etc...

I LOVE THAT FEELING AND WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO HELP OTHERS EXPERIENCE THAT WONDERFUL FEELING.

Call it what you want. From pushing past fears, removing the haze, achieving clarity, removing negative beliefs, removing the blind fold, increasing awareness, being more conscious, etc..

I don't know how I will market it or what way I will word it, but it sure is what I will be focusing on!

I am excited.

Although I don't know what contents my site will have on it or what I will be selling or promoting in order for me to see if it is successful, all I know is it feels SOOOOO right!

If you are looking for a niche market, I highly recommend not just jumping on to a keyword search tool, trying to find what everyone is looking for. What are YOU looking for? Follow your heart and then use the tool to refine what resignates with you!

By the way, it turned out my spiritual coach is very familiar with internet marketing, something along the lines of internet marketing is what she did prior to her "heart" work! :O) She even recommended a site builder that is much cheaper than the one I was previously looking at. Her website is www.laurabonilla.com.

Lots of love,
Tiffany

The Beginning

I have been thinking a little about how I will measure whether or not I reach my goal. I believe the best way to measure it would be different for each task.



Example Email marketing:

In order for this to work I must first have a database of people to email. Then to measure whether I have successfully learned email marketing, I would have to measure the percentage of response compared to the amount of emails that go out, etc.. I could be wrong and way off but we will figure it all out as we go.



So for now I believe I will set a goal date of June 30th. By this date in order to say I successfully learned internet marketing (or at least begun to), I will need to be successful in each area, I mentioned in the last blog. plus I am adding one more.



1. Finding a niche market

2. Building a successful website

3. SEO (Search Engine Optimization)

4. Video Marketing

5. PPC (Pay Per Click)

6. AdSense

7. Email Marketing

8. Ezine's

9. Anything else that comes up.

I believe that is the order in which I will be focusing on them, but I am sure things might change as we go along.

I am in the process of setting up an account with BeBiz, which is like WordTracker. These are Keyword search tools, that help find what people are searching for on search engines and maybe not getting a lot of results. Meaning the competition is low in that market.

If anyone would like me to discuss that more, let me know. I don't know how well I could explain it but if someone else needs clarification on it, then I am not explaining it well and probably means I need to become more clear on it myself.

I really would like to find some more time to dedicate to this and a little bit more of a direction to go in.

I work the next three nights and start my spring quarter for school this week so its going to take a lot of focus and dedication in order to accomplish this goal. That is why i am committing myself to writing here EVERY SINGLE day.

I have a few seminars coming up in April and May, so I don't know how I am going to work out writing here everyday but its a must. I might not have time to do any work (one seminar is monday thru friday 9a.m. to 11p.m. and is an hour away from my home) but I will at least write about my experiences there and what I learned.

I would also like to make sure I get to the gym at least three times a week. My energy level is much higher when I am exercising on a regular basis and my sleep is much better as well. I really feel that it will directly impact how much I can get done.

See you tomorrow,

Tiffany