It took me a week and half to recover my house from the wedding chaos! But my real goes for after the wedding was to get back to work and to start exercising again.
I believe the universe works in miracles ways and its amazing the way it provides. About two weeks ago Albert and I were talking and he had said that if he made just $500 more a month that he wouldn't really want me to work at all. A week later after he changed his W-4 to married his net income went up $520 a month. Interesting..... Although I am not a "house" wife type person, this has given me the freedom to really work on my career being something that I truly love. I also love taking care of Albert and Joel and I don't think having more "things" is worth sacrificing really being able to take care of them the way I do. I am still looking for a part time job while I am working on the work I really want to be doing just because I am a person that likes to be busy and producing. Plus, we can really use the money!
The most beautiful thing was Albert's response to me when I was double checking that it truly was okay for me not to "rush" or make work a priority. His answer was "Of course, I would rather you be home, my only concern is that you are getting older and I don't want you to one day feel like you missed out on your dream job." Isn't he amazing! What he wants for me is to be able to do what is in my heart and not to worry about money. His words, "I'm gonna take care of you forever!"
One could think that I have the life I have because of him and that is partial true. We both have the lives we have because of each other but also because of ourselves. If I wasn't the type of person to follow my heart and trust in source, I would not be where I am today, I wouldn't have the relationship we have and I wouldn't have the life I have.
I have done a lot of work on myself. I know what it means to struggle. I went from absolutely nothing, to working and educating myself and raising my son myself to really following my heart and allowing the most amazing man to take care of me. I couldn't have imagined being taken care of so well. I didn't know what it felt like to be loved unconditional and for a someone to truly care for me. But I really worked on myself and invested in being a healthy person within. It's life long work to be the best person I can be but I do feel like I have put in a lot of work and I have made being a loving healthy person a priority in my life and I would like to believe that is why my life is what it is today.
As for exercising. I found a used treadmill online still under warranty and less than a year old for a very good price. Albert made it a priority to get it for me and I have started exercising every morning. I must say mostly I exercise to FEEL good, not to look good. Looking good is a good side effect that will be nice but my intention is to feel good. Exercise makes me feel good in a way that nothing else does, I feel awake, light and ready for life.
Today a friend is bringing over another exercise machine and we already had a full weight bench set that does all kinds of things. I don't even have to go to the gym. Now I have no excuse.
What I intend for next is to really develop the understanding of what I want to do career wise. I know I want to help people and I know generally how I want to and in what way. But it's time to really gain some real clarity on it and what my next steps are.
I also intend to get back in shape and to be feeling really good physically. I want to feel energetic and lively!
And of course hopefully some little ones soon. Well, not too soon. We have a few things we need to catch up on financially before we can start planning to bring some little miracles into our lives but hopefully sometime next year we will have a beautiful announcement.
Lots of Love.
Enjoy!
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Surgery Cancelled and referred to USC
My surgery was scheduled for Monday March 5th until I went to the Pre-Op appointment yesterday. After re-examination the doctor said my condition and symptoms is extremely rare and something he has never seen before. So he said he was going to refer me to USC for the procedure.
Needless to say yesterday was not a good day.
I think part of me is becoming numb to the bad news but the part that stung pretty bad was that before this appointment I seen an end to all of this in my near future. I was under the impression that after this last surgery I would be able to even work within a week and that most of it would be behind me.
Now, I have to go through the wait game again (for the referral and authorization), examination, scheduling a surgery (which from what the Doctor said isn't going to be such a simple surgery as what was previously scheduled), recovery, etc. Not to mention now I will have the symptoms and limitations for that much longer.
When the plan was to have the surgery this coming Monday, I was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel and after yesterdays appointment I felt like that was ripped out from under me. I should be used to that by now, ha?!
I was so glad Albert wasn't working and was able to help me through this. We worked through a lot of things, especially some issues I was having with myself and what I bring to our relationship. He does so much and I feel like I do nothing but bring more stress and bad news. He doesn't see it the way I do.
So yesterday was an emotional day.
I am feeling okay today, probably learning to surrender to things a lot quicker.
I would really love to find a way to be productive and feel like I am doing something, even while I am going through all of this. That would make me feel a hundred times better.
Needless to say yesterday was not a good day.
I think part of me is becoming numb to the bad news but the part that stung pretty bad was that before this appointment I seen an end to all of this in my near future. I was under the impression that after this last surgery I would be able to even work within a week and that most of it would be behind me.
Now, I have to go through the wait game again (for the referral and authorization), examination, scheduling a surgery (which from what the Doctor said isn't going to be such a simple surgery as what was previously scheduled), recovery, etc. Not to mention now I will have the symptoms and limitations for that much longer.
When the plan was to have the surgery this coming Monday, I was able to see the light at the end of the tunnel and after yesterdays appointment I felt like that was ripped out from under me. I should be used to that by now, ha?!
I was so glad Albert wasn't working and was able to help me through this. We worked through a lot of things, especially some issues I was having with myself and what I bring to our relationship. He does so much and I feel like I do nothing but bring more stress and bad news. He doesn't see it the way I do.
So yesterday was an emotional day.
I am feeling okay today, probably learning to surrender to things a lot quicker.
I would really love to find a way to be productive and feel like I am doing something, even while I am going through all of this. That would make me feel a hundred times better.
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