Present Awareness

Upcoming Birthday(July 28th) and stuff!

I usually get a little weirded out when my birthday is approaching.

Just a couple years back it came in form of depression.

Last year it was in the form of anxiety and questioning myself and what I wanted out of life.

This time, its much different. If this is even birthday related.
Recently I have been very deep (as if thats anything new) but even more. My consciousness is expanding and my awareness of my myself and others has increased dramatically.
I can see when I get wrapped up in the drama of the human mind now, but I am still not to the point where I am able to completely control it though!

I have just been absolutely loving life lately and sometimes I think my thoughts don't know what to do about that!

I am realizing that when I am not feeling my best, I have a tendency to blame it on something outside of me..(e.g. I don't care for my job, my boyfriend and I haven't had a lot of "us" time lately, this didn't work out, that didn't work out, etc...)

But living the truth that I live, I know all too well it all comes from within. It has absolutely nothing to do with anything outside of me.

I am not a victim, I am a creator.

Now finding the beliefs and behaviors that are keeping me in my current place of employment and my current place in any other area I am "stuck" in, is the challenge.

Or maybe the ultimate challenge is just learning to enjoy every second in the now and not worry about anything else!

Not sure but what I do know is I am about to enjoy the rest of my night, if I can settle the "demands" of the mind.


;o)

Namaste,
Tiffany

I went way off subject here but I just needed to "empty my basket". :o)