I can't help but notice how many amazing people I have in my life and how much I appreciate the people around me.
My husband is absolutely my other half. We love each other so much but most importantly we respect and honor each other. In every situation, in every area of our lives he goes far beyond what I could have ever even wanted from another. He is what makes my life amazing and he reminds me of his love every day. He makes me feel special, loved, important, and his #1 priority. I am his engine and he is mine.
My son is just awesome. He is so loving and caring yet extremely intelligent and confident. My son is such a conscious and funny child, I feel honored to be his mother.
My family is so supportive and loving. They are amazing in different ways. I won't bore everyone by going over each and every one of them but it doesn't minimize how hugely important they are to me. I hope to continue to see my relationships with them evolve, improve and deepen.
My friends are just beyond amazing. Every time I think my friends couldn't get any better they prove me wrong. I have the most amazing friends anyone could ask for. I hope to continue to grow with each and every one of them and to be able to enrich their lives the way they do mine.
I love our home. When I think back at how we were able to get our house it still reminds me of how supportive the universe/source is. Our house will always be proof to me that everything happens for a reason. From the first time I stepped into this house, I loved it. I fell in love with it, immediately. Having our own home that I love, has brought out such nurturing and care taking qualities within myself. In my eyes our house is perfect, it is our.....HOME.
I am so blessed to be able to stay home and just focus on taking care of my husband and son. And it really allows me to focus on what I really want to do with my life, in creating a career that I will truly enjoy.
The areas of my life where I would like to focus on transforming is my body and career.
My body has been through a lot this last year or so. Two surgeries, some medications, a lot of stress, and extreme life style changes. I would like to see myself not only recover from all of that but also get to a place where my body feels really good......amazingly good! I want to get to this place with joy and ease. Enjoying life, Enjoying my body.
As I said before right now I have the freedom to really explore what I really want to be doing career wise. This does not mean what I can do, or what I should be doing. To me it is about what I will ENJOY doing. What will bring me the most fulfillment. I am blessed to be in a situation where my husband makes enough money to take care of us and I can take all the time I need to really create the ideal career for myself. I want to create my career through joy, ease, and fun.
I think what is becoming important to me is to be able to enjoy every aspect of my life. I have two areas where that can use some work. But the overall theme here is JOY.
I am becoming aware of the idea that any area in my life that has to do with other people is already in a place of joy and ease. But it's time I take the next step and heal the areas in my life that has to do with me and me only. No one can create the ideal career for me and no one can make my body be healthy and energetic. I'm sure Albert would fix those things for me if he could and it probably pains him that he can't but these are two things I have to do for myself.
Interesting..... I truly love and enjoy all the people around me, its time I start loving and enjoying myself fully too! I know Albert and Joel would really appreciate a more energetic and fun wife and mother.
Enjoy!
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Showing posts with label creating the life I want. Show all posts
My desires!
Through out the last few days I have written down several topics in which I would like to blog about. Stuff I know I need to take the time to focus on and allow myself to write what comes up. Writing is very healing and therapeutic for me. But, for right now I don't feel like focusing on that stuff at the moment. Although I will state them now so that I feel more accountable to giving them some time then I will get to the real topic of today's blog post.
Future Topics
1. The idea of being considerate of others NOT being priority, that the number one priority is being authentic and true to myself. This comes from years of Abraham Hicks and Byron Katie's work. "How you react or feel because of me, is none of my business" - Byron Katie
2. The concept of control, regaining control, control over my mind, my life, my body. etc...
3. Taking the concept of control even further. Hopefully I can articulate this clearly. Usually I give in to what I want as way of "feeling" like I have control and I don't have to follow anyone's "should" list. (example I should eat a certain way) however I had this moment of clarity the other day that giving into a craving, a laziness, a dislike, etc.. is giving away my control over my body and mind. When I give in to "habits" it is my subconscious (trained behavior) that I am giving control too, it really isn't the conscious me. Therefore, giving into something (going against other people's shoulds) is still actually giving up control. I guess I am sort of admitting here that I have less control over my thoughts and actions than I would like or previously thought I had.
4. And finally I would like to be able to come to a clear conclusion of how joy and control mix together. I don't enjoy going to the gym but it takes self control to do it. It seems that most decisions that we would make in order to have control go against joy. This is important to me to clarify because my number 1 priority over anything is Joy. Abraham Hicks has taught me a lot in regards creating the life I want and what is important to me. When I allow myself to be anything but joy I am not serving anyone, not myself, not my loved ones, not my friends, not anyone around me. Joy not control is my priority, however I do want to have control over my mind which will allow me to control my thoughts to only focus on joy. Okay, if you can follow all of that I would be surprised. But I need to find some clarity in this area because they seem to conflict for me and I would like to align them some how. And for those of you who will say something like well just change your perception or you will learn to enjoy it, if it was that easy and didn't take a lack of joy and control in the first place I would have already done it. So it's not some simple "change" the way I am solution, its something in my beliefs and thoughts that needs to shift and align with each other.
Those are future posts, if not only for my own personal attempt to gain clarity and shift some limiting beliefs.
Enough of that!
On to the good stuff for the moment.
My desires! I had a few friends mention to me making what I desire very clear to Source. I even had someone tell me about something called "placing your order with the universe" not sure I am that confident in my asking yet but I thought I would take a few moments to put my desires out there.
1. A home for us (Albert, Joel, Myself, and hopefully babies in the future) that has at least three bedrooms, two bathrooms, two car garage, enough space to park all of our cars (Albert has quite a few), the house being at the very least 1400 square feet, central air, convenient washer and dryer hookup area, a big comfortable kitchen..... all within the charter oak school district at a price we can afford right now and within a timely manner (like as soon as possible). A home we enjoy and love and is perfect for all of us.
2. A tight healthy body.
3. Two babies in the near future.
4. An enjoyable abundant career.
5. For Albert and I to continue to grow closer and stronger as a couple for what we have to evolve and go deeper and deeper. (I have the relationship I want with him already, now I just desire it to continue to be this way and for us to grow together in this very fulfilling and loving manner we have now.)
6. For all of us (Joel, Albert, and myself) to continue to get closer and closer. For us to be a close, respectful and strong family. To trust each and support each other.
7. For my son to love himself and his life. For him to be successful (whatever that means to him) and for him to know and feel he is capable of anything he desires. For us to continue to be very close and loving for the rest of our lives. For him to feel very loved, cherished and special and that he knows I will always be there for him no matter what. I just want him to be happy!
Wow, that is a lot to ask for but someone told me I don't have to choose. I don't expect to have everything but it doesn't hurt to get clear about what I desire in life.
I plan on looking back on this post to keep my focus on my desires and what I want instead of worrying about what I don't want.
Hopefully tomorrow I will be motivated to give some of those others topics some attention.
Good Night!
Future Topics
1. The idea of being considerate of others NOT being priority, that the number one priority is being authentic and true to myself. This comes from years of Abraham Hicks and Byron Katie's work. "How you react or feel because of me, is none of my business" - Byron Katie
2. The concept of control, regaining control, control over my mind, my life, my body. etc...
3. Taking the concept of control even further. Hopefully I can articulate this clearly. Usually I give in to what I want as way of "feeling" like I have control and I don't have to follow anyone's "should" list. (example I should eat a certain way) however I had this moment of clarity the other day that giving into a craving, a laziness, a dislike, etc.. is giving away my control over my body and mind. When I give in to "habits" it is my subconscious (trained behavior) that I am giving control too, it really isn't the conscious me. Therefore, giving into something (going against other people's shoulds) is still actually giving up control. I guess I am sort of admitting here that I have less control over my thoughts and actions than I would like or previously thought I had.
4. And finally I would like to be able to come to a clear conclusion of how joy and control mix together. I don't enjoy going to the gym but it takes self control to do it. It seems that most decisions that we would make in order to have control go against joy. This is important to me to clarify because my number 1 priority over anything is Joy. Abraham Hicks has taught me a lot in regards creating the life I want and what is important to me. When I allow myself to be anything but joy I am not serving anyone, not myself, not my loved ones, not my friends, not anyone around me. Joy not control is my priority, however I do want to have control over my mind which will allow me to control my thoughts to only focus on joy. Okay, if you can follow all of that I would be surprised. But I need to find some clarity in this area because they seem to conflict for me and I would like to align them some how. And for those of you who will say something like well just change your perception or you will learn to enjoy it, if it was that easy and didn't take a lack of joy and control in the first place I would have already done it. So it's not some simple "change" the way I am solution, its something in my beliefs and thoughts that needs to shift and align with each other.
Those are future posts, if not only for my own personal attempt to gain clarity and shift some limiting beliefs.
Enough of that!
On to the good stuff for the moment.
My desires! I had a few friends mention to me making what I desire very clear to Source. I even had someone tell me about something called "placing your order with the universe" not sure I am that confident in my asking yet but I thought I would take a few moments to put my desires out there.
1. A home for us (Albert, Joel, Myself, and hopefully babies in the future) that has at least three bedrooms, two bathrooms, two car garage, enough space to park all of our cars (Albert has quite a few), the house being at the very least 1400 square feet, central air, convenient washer and dryer hookup area, a big comfortable kitchen..... all within the charter oak school district at a price we can afford right now and within a timely manner (like as soon as possible). A home we enjoy and love and is perfect for all of us.
2. A tight healthy body.
3. Two babies in the near future.
4. An enjoyable abundant career.
5. For Albert and I to continue to grow closer and stronger as a couple for what we have to evolve and go deeper and deeper. (I have the relationship I want with him already, now I just desire it to continue to be this way and for us to grow together in this very fulfilling and loving manner we have now.)
6. For all of us (Joel, Albert, and myself) to continue to get closer and closer. For us to be a close, respectful and strong family. To trust each and support each other.
7. For my son to love himself and his life. For him to be successful (whatever that means to him) and for him to know and feel he is capable of anything he desires. For us to continue to be very close and loving for the rest of our lives. For him to feel very loved, cherished and special and that he knows I will always be there for him no matter what. I just want him to be happy!
Wow, that is a lot to ask for but someone told me I don't have to choose. I don't expect to have everything but it doesn't hurt to get clear about what I desire in life.
I plan on looking back on this post to keep my focus on my desires and what I want instead of worrying about what I don't want.
Hopefully tomorrow I will be motivated to give some of those others topics some attention.
Good Night!
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